ConfusedHurting2632
Student
- Dec 22, 2021
- 116
TL;DR- I'm a complete and total sexual deviant, and incredibly ashamed of it. Perhaps I "deserve" to die, though I want to die anyway.
The title says it. I shall elaborate on what I mean. So the average/normal/healthy person probably has pretty set boundaries between their daily life mode and their sexual mode. Such as they watch porn or have sex with their partner, but can turn it off otherwise in other contexts, and just focus on what needs to be focused. As for me though, I'm not attracted to porn or nudity at all...I'm attracted to way less. A woman in a pair of short shorts and a tank top turns me on big time. But it doesn't stop there, I'm bisexual/pansexual, meaning a man or non-binary person in a nice pair of above the knee shorts turns me on a lot as well. And I live in Florida, so you can bet a lot of people are rocking short shorts and tank tops. I constantly have a hard time controlling my sexuality. I even have a hard time at the pool or at the beach, because seeing all those women in their tiny bikinis and men in their short shorts turns me on a lot. It doesn't stop there either, I'm turned on by cartoon and anime characters as well, especially if they're wearing short shorts or swimwear...pathetic I know, since they're just drawings. That's not even getting into my imagination/fantasies/what I think about when I masturbate. I often like to picture two hot women together, both of them in tank tops and short shorts, sitting next to each other with their bare thighs touching, and then one of them goes, "I just shaved, feel my legs!" and the other one starts to feel her legs, all the way from ankles to top of the thigh. I also have even invented my own characters in my imagination...the most prominent one being Luna. Luna is 5'11, half Black half White, medium brown skin tone, long butt length dark brown hair that's kept in a ponytail, curvaceous figure, big boobs, big butt, pretty small waist, pretty muscular figure as well, etc. If I had to compare her to someone it'd be Korra from Legend of Korra, though I still envision her as way different. As for her personality...Luna is very sweet and strong, very touchy feely, she hates wearing pants and wears short shorts all the time, or a short skirt or short dress that goes well above her knees. I used to plan to seriously become a writer and make stories, but now I realize any story I would make would just simply be catering to me and my sexual fantasies, and wouldn't become anything of value people would actually read.
After writing that long paragraph about my sexuality, and rereading it...wow...it sounds even worse out loud than it did in my head. Definitely deserves a NSFW label at least. I flirted with the idea of attaching a couple of SFW picture files that show what I'm attracted to, including one that shows what Luna would look like...but I ultimately decided against it because it'd be more for me than for anyone else, and I already tortured you guys enough with that disturbing long paragraph. I would like to clarify that despite me having talked about all this sexuality stuff so freely, I still am incredibly ashamed of it. It makes me feel absolutely disgusting and hopeless. Like some sort of lust filled being that can think of nothing but what they consider to be sexy. Perhaps I "deserve" to die for thinking this way...though I want to die anyway.
The title says it. I shall elaborate on what I mean. So the average/normal/healthy person probably has pretty set boundaries between their daily life mode and their sexual mode. Such as they watch porn or have sex with their partner, but can turn it off otherwise in other contexts, and just focus on what needs to be focused. As for me though, I'm not attracted to porn or nudity at all...I'm attracted to way less. A woman in a pair of short shorts and a tank top turns me on big time. But it doesn't stop there, I'm bisexual/pansexual, meaning a man or non-binary person in a nice pair of above the knee shorts turns me on a lot as well. And I live in Florida, so you can bet a lot of people are rocking short shorts and tank tops. I constantly have a hard time controlling my sexuality. I even have a hard time at the pool or at the beach, because seeing all those women in their tiny bikinis and men in their short shorts turns me on a lot. It doesn't stop there either, I'm turned on by cartoon and anime characters as well, especially if they're wearing short shorts or swimwear...pathetic I know, since they're just drawings. That's not even getting into my imagination/fantasies/what I think about when I masturbate. I often like to picture two hot women together, both of them in tank tops and short shorts, sitting next to each other with their bare thighs touching, and then one of them goes, "I just shaved, feel my legs!" and the other one starts to feel her legs, all the way from ankles to top of the thigh. I also have even invented my own characters in my imagination...the most prominent one being Luna. Luna is 5'11, half Black half White, medium brown skin tone, long butt length dark brown hair that's kept in a ponytail, curvaceous figure, big boobs, big butt, pretty small waist, pretty muscular figure as well, etc. If I had to compare her to someone it'd be Korra from Legend of Korra, though I still envision her as way different. As for her personality...Luna is very sweet and strong, very touchy feely, she hates wearing pants and wears short shorts all the time, or a short skirt or short dress that goes well above her knees. I used to plan to seriously become a writer and make stories, but now I realize any story I would make would just simply be catering to me and my sexual fantasies, and wouldn't become anything of value people would actually read.
After writing that long paragraph about my sexuality, and rereading it...wow...it sounds even worse out loud than it did in my head. Definitely deserves a NSFW label at least. I flirted with the idea of attaching a couple of SFW picture files that show what I'm attracted to, including one that shows what Luna would look like...but I ultimately decided against it because it'd be more for me than for anyone else, and I already tortured you guys enough with that disturbing long paragraph. I would like to clarify that despite me having talked about all this sexuality stuff so freely, I still am incredibly ashamed of it. It makes me feel absolutely disgusting and hopeless. Like some sort of lust filled being that can think of nothing but what they consider to be sexy. Perhaps I "deserve" to die for thinking this way...though I want to die anyway.
One person's kinky thoughts, might be another's go to must do sex method. And sometimes your kinks might be the exact turn on for someone else. The only things I condemn sexually would be sex with someone unwilling, sex with the dead, sex with animals, sex with kids, sex with someone who was drugged into compliance, sex with someone who is insane or intellectually deficit. But when it comes to sex between two willing adults, I say," Enjoy yourself, enjoy yourself, enjoy yourself......be free. Better enjoy yourself. Sexually deviant, see Ted Bundy, and Jeffrey Dahmer, now that was deviant. You kick yourself for nothing. This is not a sex site but to help you see that your not a sexual deviant, I'll reveal some of my own er peccadillos. When I had PE class if there was a dude there with blond hair, especially platinum blond hair, I would er capture his images for my own later use. I could recall everything in detail. I had fun, the blond dude who might have been straight, wasn't hurt in any way. No one ever could figure out why I just loved the beaches in Florida do much, when I was a kid!
So quit feeling your weird, you're not weird, merely horny. I always wanted to meet the guy who invented sex, to see what he working on next!
