My sad 30 year long battle, at age 46

[laet197942]

Dear all

I don't know where to post this...
I never thought I would reach this point of despair...
At age 16 (I am now 46) I started suffering severe insomnia, severe anxiety... I could not go to school anymore, I was then hospitalized and put on antidepressants...
Long story short, I have been on antidepressants since then, I had no idea this would lead me to this condition, I never managed to decrease nor stop, then it triggered other problems because these meds are not done to be taken for ever. I am still on them. I am on disability, could not have a partner because of my severe problems, I lost friends, everything. I have only my mother. I live in her house. I never was suicidal before but I am now because there is no way out of the hell triggered by the long term use of these SSRIs. Am also on anxiety meds, sleep meds...antipsychotic etc.
I suffer so much that psychiatry put me in this condition, and we are refused a peaceful death from these murderers. There was this girl on this site called Marie from France it seemed she had a peaceful death but everything has been deleted from this site... she probably managed to get N....because she did not suffer. i tried to find info but no info, she was in contact with someone from this site called Liberating angel or something like this... I am so scared i want to die but the only method seems hanging and it seems the pain from it is awful... I read all this site through... So many people just do it.... I used to believe in God but I lost any faith in the hell of psychiatric medication long term... Marie is so lucky it seems she did not suffer, from what I read from the person who was on the phone with her... There is no God, I used to be a Christian, but what I live is absolutely sadical. I am French and from France sorry if my English is not that good.

 

[metfan647]

I'm sorry for all your suffering. Your English is excellent, by the way.

 

[laet197942]

thank you...

 

[bakenohana]

sorry to hear, you deserve so much better than the life you were given. wish you the best, regardless of whether you decide to live or die. also for the record your english is really good, no need to worry about your english <3

 

[Fadenself00]

Dear all

I don't know where to post this...
I never thought I would reach this point of despair...
At age 16 (I am now 46) I started suffering severe insomnia, severe anxiety... I could not go to school anymore, I was then hospitalized and put on antidepressants...
Long story short, I have been on antidepressants since then, I had no idea this would lead me to this condition, I never managed to decrease nor stop, then it triggered other problems because these meds are not done to be taken for ever. I am still on them. I am on disability, could not have a partner because of my severe problems, I lost friends, everything. I have only my mother. I live in her house. I never was suicidal before but I am now because there is no way out of the hell triggered by the long term use of these SSRIs. Am also on anxiety meds, sleep meds...antipsychotic etc.
I suffer so much that psychiatry put me in this condition, and we are refused a peaceful death from these murderers. There was this girl on this site called Marie from France it seemed she had a peaceful death but everything has been deleted from this site... she probably managed to get N....because she did not suffer. i tried to find info but no info, she was in contact with someone from this site called Liberating angel or something like this... I am so scared i want to die but the only method seems hanging and it seems the pain from it is awful... I read all this site through... So many people just do it.... I used to believe in God but I lost any faith in the hell of psychiatric medication long term... Marie is so lucky it seems she did not suffer, from what I read from the person who was on the phone with her... There is no God, I used to be a Christian, but what I live is absolutely sadical. I am French and from France sorry if my English is not that good.

my life has been destroyed by psychiatry as well.. you could probably taper all of them but it would be brutal and very very unstable/dangerous and for your brain to go back to a baseline it would probably take years.. i am very fucking sorry. this system consists of ignorant idiots that kill people and have nazi-like power over them. again, very very sorry :( <333

 

[laet197942]

I tried multiple times to decrease even by 5% impossible. Now im so much at my end rope i will Ask for another médication on top of the 4 i have. They destroyed my life. I am such a scared person, hanging terrifies me. Psychiatry destroyed me. how i can escape this hell. There is no God. No Jésus having allowed that. Thank you all.

 

[laet197942]

Does any body know how Marie from France Cbt? In october 2024. She did not suffer. Everything was deleted it seems...

 

[itsgone2]

I never thought I would reach this point of despair...
At age 16 (I am now 46) I started suffering severe insomnia, severe anxiety...

So sorry to hear. I've also suffered from insomnia and the many effects it brings. Was never on meds before that. Just terrible what it does.

 

[vascomorrow]

Dear all

I don't know where to post this...
I never thought I would reach this point of despair...
At age 16 (I am now 46) I started suffering severe insomnia, severe anxiety... I could not go to school anymore, I was then hospitalized and put on antidepressants...
Long story short, I have been on antidepressants since then, I had no idea this would lead me to this condition, I never managed to decrease nor stop, then it triggered other problems because these meds are not done to be taken for ever. I am still on them. I am on disability, could not have a partner because of my severe problems, I lost friends, everything. I have only my mother. I live in her house. I never was suicidal before but I am now because there is no way out of the hell triggered by the long term use of these SSRIs. Am also on anxiety meds, sleep meds...antipsychotic etc.
I suffer so much that psychiatry put me in this condition, and we are refused a peaceful death from these murderers. There was this girl on this site called Marie from France it seemed she had a peaceful death but everything has been deleted from this site... she probably managed to get N....because she did not suffer. i tried to find info but no info, she was in contact with someone from this site called Liberating angel or something like this... I am so scared i want to die but the only method seems hanging and it seems the pain from it is awful... I read all this site through... So many people just do it.... I used to believe in God but I lost any faith in the hell of psychiatric medication long term... Marie is so lucky it seems she did not suffer, from what I read from the person who was on the phone with her... There is no God, I used to be a Christian, but what I live is absolutely sadical. I am French and from France sorry if my English is not that good.

I wish you could share this story to some younger people who started taking meds. Maybe you could save some lives that way. Goodluck my friend.

 

[laet197942]

I always thought suicide would be an escape from this hell but now i realize im too scared to hang myself, I wish my experience could help some young people...please help me