CicisDoingUnwell
𝐓𝐨𝐨 𝐌𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐓𝐨 𝐃𝐨. <𝟑
- Aug 8, 2025
- 62
☆ ── ꒰ 
(𝑪 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒚𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈...)
Now that I have a clear head, I want to get a few things off my chest here, because I can't get them off my chest anywhere else.
I lost my court case yesterday. Can I handle it? I don't know yet, to be honest. Do I want to die? Yes, because it's so uncomfortable for me.
So what was the reason I lost it?
I gave three different statements, which made me seem untrustworthy.
But why is that? Why do people give different statements?
Because trauma changes your mind. Only now, after a year, can I roughly assess how the whole thing unfolded.
Besides, I was 17, wtf...
Ultimately, no charges were filed, so what's the plan now?
Either I file a complaint in two weeks
or
I just try to never talk about it again and somehow deal with it while getting therapy
or
I kill myself.
All the pain I had to go through and am still going through is so unbearable, but I think everyone on this site can relate.
☆ ── 𝑩𝒚𝒆; 𝑪! ꒱
(𝑪 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒚𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈...)Now that I have a clear head, I want to get a few things off my chest here, because I can't get them off my chest anywhere else.
I lost my court case yesterday. Can I handle it? I don't know yet, to be honest. Do I want to die? Yes, because it's so uncomfortable for me.
So what was the reason I lost it?
I gave three different statements, which made me seem untrustworthy.
But why is that? Why do people give different statements?
Because trauma changes your mind. Only now, after a year, can I roughly assess how the whole thing unfolded.
Besides, I was 17, wtf...
Ultimately, no charges were filed, so what's the plan now?
Either I file a complaint in two weeks
or
I just try to never talk about it again and somehow deal with it while getting therapy
or
I kill myself.
All the pain I had to go through and am still going through is so unbearable, but I think everyone on this site can relate.
☆ ──
𝑩𝒚𝒆; 𝑪! ꒱
