My plan. Hanging myself once I spend all my money

[guinea-pig]

I made a plan that feels fully comfortable now.

I have a little money right now and I am going to do my best to save it until I earn some more in a few weeks. I'll probably have $600-$700 after that. Then what I am going to do is buy the exact rope I need which is only about $20 for 50 ft. That part might be a little hard because I have to order online and I don't want to order it to my family's home, I'll probably pay for a PO Box but I don't want to do that because they are so expansive lol.

Then I'm going to enjoy myself and spend it all on things I want and have been wanting. I have somethings I already know I want and I can spend money quick so I will probably be ready to hang myself sometime later October if everything goes to my plan. I think October 20th feels right but I am not sure yet I need to think I little more on the exact date.

I'm going to hang myself in a forest sort of near by my house. I'm going to go there at night so my family doesn't get suspicious, it is closed at night but I don't think anyone will see me entering and if even they do they most likely won't call the cops over it. When I get there it might take a while to find a tree but I'm not worried because I've been there before and there are many lively trees. Once I find the tree I am going to smoke a lot of weed and relax for a bit to think for a bit. Then when I can't take the thinking anymore I am going to prepare to hang myself the knots will be tied I will just need to hang it up. Then I'll hopefully do what I need to do and I don't fail.

I'm glad I am going to spend all my money though. I know it is going to feel good not to being worried about things for a bit.

 

[CW36]

Your method is sound, but I wouldn't touch weed before hand. That'll only make things worse in terms of SI, paranoia and general composure. You want a downer like alcohol for confidence and calmness.

 

[Someone123]

Many people back out of plans, and if you spend all of your money and then back out, will life be tougher? Just consider this factor, so many people thyink they will follow through and then the time comes and they just are not able to go through with it, often because on some level they haven't lost all hope, and this shows up when they get closer to the time. It may not be a good decision to spend all of your money just in case.

 

[captive]

if you don't want to bring any unnecessary attention then you can try to buy reinforced ethernet cable instead, it won't raise so much suspicions. unless you don't have a pc to plug it into.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans, I hope that when the time feels right for you to leave you find the freedom you search for.

 

[guinea-pig]

Many people back out of plans, and if you spend all of your money and then back out, will life be tougher? Just consider this factor, so many people thyink they will follow through and then the time comes and they just are not able to go through with it, often because on some level they haven't lost all hope, and this shows up when they get closer to the time. It may not be a good decision to spend all of your money just in case.

It wont be tougher I think if I fail. I don't have a steady income because it's hard for me to have a real job. I'll spend all my money at some point anyways before I get more.

if you don't want to bring any unnecessary attention then you can try to buy reinforced ethernet cable instead, it won't raise so much suspicions. unless you don't have a pc to plug it into.

how thick is the cable usually?
Edit nvm I found out, I think it would be too small in diameter because from what I've seen 14mm is best and the cables only go up to 9mm