Exactly what needs to be said. Pro-lifers want us alive just so we are seen but they don't want to hear us on why our life fucking sucks. And if you use this rhetoric you get labeled as mentally ill so they ignore you anyway if you try to defend yourself logically.
They're all behaving like anti-abortion activists in both their stupidity and arrogance. Like them wanting to keep children alive but not giving a shit whether they're gonna grow up with abusive parents or poverty or parent less or a combination of all the three, these pro-lifers are doing the exact same thing.
I also find that some responses here are pro-life, but let me tell you why I can't tolerate living on this planet. I have parents that suck. My teenage years were a mess with extracurriculars burnout school anxiety etc. The universe keeps telling me to fuck off during my university years. The mental health system completely screwed up my life and medical records.
Parents wanting their kid to be alive doesn't count as them being loving parents. It comes down to them being trustworthy in the first place, like not gaslighting their child that they're not lgbt then denying that they ever did that when you're an adult and preach the good-parent npc nonsense that they're good parents and you're the rebellious one. It comes down to parents letting you choose what to do with your time instead of using what they did to your older sibling and copying what they did because "that's all they know how to do things and they're not familiar with the system" and stressing you out with extracurriculars and school classes because "you need to go to high school" --> "you need to go to college" --> "you need a good paying job" --> "you need to marry" --> "you need to take car3 of me when I'm old" --> "I WANT GRANDKIDS I WANT IT NOW!!!!!!!!!!".
FUCKING KEEPING YOUR KID ALIVE AFTER WHAT YOU DID IN CHILDHOOD DOES NOT COUNT AS LOVING. I FUCKING HATE THE ILLUSION THAT PARENTS ARE LOCONG AMD THE CHILD IS SAYING NONSENSE. BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT IS ABSOLUTELY HAPPENING IN REAL LIFE AND EVEN ON THIS FUCKING THREAD. THIS IS COMPLETE NONSENSE. SAVING YOUR CHILD FROM DELIB3RATE DEATH ON THE PART OF THE CHILD THEMSELVES DOES NOT MEAN YOUR PARENTS FUCKING LOVE YOU. SAYING THEY LOVE YOU AFTER TRYING TO SCREW UP YOUR CHILD'S SUICIDE ATTEMPT BECAUSE THEY DIDNT DO THEIR FUCKING JOB COMES ACROSS AS ARROGANT. GROW TF UP AND HAVE FUCKING EMPATHY INSTEAD OF PARADING THE PARENT SAYING "KUMBAYAH YOURE A GOOD PARENT" WITHOUT QUESTION.
you don't have to keep your parents around if you don't want to. i know cutting off toxic/abusive family members is terribly hard (i've had to do it with my own parents) but it's doable. my teenage years also sucked, i barely passed high school and failed college miserably. you don't have to do anything you don't want to do; that's the interesting part of life. all the expectations and bullshit that other people put on you shouldn't have any weight to who you are as a person and what you want to do with your life.
i'm not pro-life by any means, but i do think you should evaluate if there's another way to handle what you're dealing with currently. ctb (again, in my opinion) should be seen as a last resort if nothing else works, or in the case of chronic/terminal illness. i'm under the impression that you're still relatively young. your life still has plenty of time to change, and you can change it however you see fit, even if it seems difficult or impossible right now. my life is nowhere near what it was one or even two years ago; things can and will change. if you don't want to do college, then fuck it bro. do what makes you happy and gives you some form of fulfillment, regardless of whether other people or your parents see it as useless. i understand that the pressure you have on you right now feels unbearable, but things don't have to be this way. i think you deserve better than what you were given, and you can have better.
move out (when/if possible,) find friends/a community that cares about you, make your own family and your own bonds. blood means nothing. if your family members are fucking up your mental health an putting an unbearable strain on you, then do whatever you can to limit contact with them if possible.
you're a valuable and intelligent person (hell, you're in university when i totally gave up on it which is impressive to me) and you deserve all the good things that life has to offer you. my best advice is to distance yourself from toxic people and find a path that makes sense to you, not everyone else. i really hope you can get through this. i know you can. thank you for coming on this forum and sharing your story and how you feel. someone is always listening. cheers.
