Venting my only regret

[hoshi_starrz]

I don't have many regrets. I'm a pretty stubborn person and I've stopped caring so much about all the people that want me to continue suffering.
However, I truly feel horrible about being such a wasteful human. I've taken up space, I've spent people's money, so many people have suffered and worked so hard to keep me alive and make me happy.
For the longest time, I've been unsure about ctb because I don't want to have wasted all those resources and time and effort for nothing, yknow? But I know this is my destiny and I know I can't take this for much longer. I want to dedicate the rest of my time to giving back.
I wish I wasn't such a waste. I was meant to be more.

 

[elkheart]

I could have written this word for word.

It's one of my biggest regrets and therefore one of my biggest motivations to CTB!