warm dreams
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- Nov 23, 2023
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Hello friends, who is reading this thread. I want to share with you a draft of my suicide note. I will be glad if you give me advice, your point of view or just an opinion. I will appreciate every answer!
"Hello my family.
I believe that you have every right to hate me. I believe that you have every right to hold a grudge against me. I believe that you have every right to blame me. I believe that you have every right to consider me selfish. You have every right to think whatever you want about me. I acted horribly and recklessly towards you. I have no excuse for the way you feel. But I want you to know that where I am now, I feel happy. I finally found the long-awaited peace that I had dreamed of most of my life. Anxiety and nervousness have not left me for a minute in this life. And in recent years, they have been joined by depression, which is devouring my soul. I absolutely always felt different. I felt that I was like an alien creature that did not fit into the conditions of reality. I felt like a stranger, and in recent years I felt like a stranger among my family. From an early age, everything seemed meaningless and unreal to me. I never understood anyone, and in return they did not understand me. I'm tired of living in illusions and hopes for a better life. I haven't tried all the options, but to be honest: I don't want to try. I know there is a way out, but this way out is not for me. Forgive me for the pain I caused you. I hate myself.
With love, your X"
"Hello my family.
I believe that you have every right to hate me. I believe that you have every right to hold a grudge against me. I believe that you have every right to blame me. I believe that you have every right to consider me selfish. You have every right to think whatever you want about me. I acted horribly and recklessly towards you. I have no excuse for the way you feel. But I want you to know that where I am now, I feel happy. I finally found the long-awaited peace that I had dreamed of most of my life. Anxiety and nervousness have not left me for a minute in this life. And in recent years, they have been joined by depression, which is devouring my soul. I absolutely always felt different. I felt that I was like an alien creature that did not fit into the conditions of reality. I felt like a stranger, and in recent years I felt like a stranger among my family. From an early age, everything seemed meaningless and unreal to me. I never understood anyone, and in return they did not understand me. I'm tired of living in illusions and hopes for a better life. I haven't tried all the options, but to be honest: I don't want to try. I know there is a way out, but this way out is not for me. Forgive me for the pain I caused you. I hate myself.
With love, your X"
