Story My mom makes me insane (vent)

[m0lly]

In 2019 my sister commited suicide. Since then shes the victim. She always complain about she would never have children again and how much she hates me for havin a boyfriend who doesnt touch her (he have autism and doesnt like to be touched from people besides me)
She also told me that she feel sorry for preggo women because they will kill themself because of the children.

She isolate me from my bf, manipulate me and is so bad narssistic
She also told me that she is sad that i my sister killed herself instead of me. (Not in this words but she let me that know in a strange way)

My childhood was also a nightmare, she sexulaize me since i'm 7 year old and told me that i never will be loved by a men because they only want my body. She also didnt want that i have friends or something.
She was always out and do drugs w her ex while my sister and i havent even money for food.

I hate her so much and i didnt know i just leave.

 

[Lostandlooking]

That sounds awful. Are you living with your mom? Would it be possible to live somewhere else if that's the case? Do you think that would help?

 

[m0lly]

That sounds awful. Are you living with your mom? Would it be possible to live somewhere else if that's the case? Do you think that would help?

I'm still.living with her and tbh, she would haunt me. Thats not an option

 

[orca87]

That sounds like a nightmare. I have a long family story, too — i guess like at least half of the people here have.

Do you still have hope?
If so, don't let her "win"!

 

[m0lly]

That sounds like a nightmare. I have a long family story, too — i guess like at least half of the people here have.

Do you still have hope?
If so, don't let her "win"!

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you arent w them now.

Tbh no. I dont let her win when i end anything. So she have more to complain like she ever did.

 

[orca87]

Is she the reason why you want to go?

 

[m0lly]

Is she the reason why you want to go?

Tbh yes, but also because my mental health. I never will be normal/happy, her and my voices will always haunt me.
I tried to attempt a month ago but i didnt work out. I was to scared.

 

[orca87]

Tbh yes, but also because my mental health. I never will be normal/happy, her and my voices will always haunt me.
I tried to attempt a month ago but i didnt work out. I was to scared.

Sounds really scary! Sorry to hear that

 

[Galileo3630]

I will never understand why a person like your mom would ever have children when they can't be a proper adult and love their children the way they're supposed to be loved

 

[m0lly]

I will never understand why a person like your mom would ever have children when they can't be a proper adult and love their children the way they're supposed to be loved

The fear of being alone when they are old. The fear of being alone in generel. Its messed up.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrific what you have to go through, it's just so awful how in this cruel world humans create so much harm and cause other people to suffer. This world certainly is such a hellish place to exist in.

 

[Galileo3630]

In 2019 my sister commited suicide. Since then shes the victim. She always complain about she would never have children again and how much she hates me for havin a boyfriend who doesnt touch her (he have autism and doesnt like to be touched from people besides me)
She also told me that she feel sorry for preggo women because they will kill themself because of the children.

She isolate me from my bf, manipulate me and is so bad narssistic
She also told me that she is sad that i my sister killed herself instead of me. (Not in this words but she let me that know in a strange way)

My childhood was also a nightmare, she sexulaize me since i'm 7 year old and told me that i never will be loved by a men because they only want my body. She also didnt want that i have friends or something.
She was always out and do drugs w her ex while my sister and i havent even money for food.

I hate her so much and i didnt know i just leave.

However, simply because your mother is a douchebag, that doesn't mean you should end it. Seems like your mother is the one who should be on this forum, not you. And if you don't have any money for food due to your mom being an absolute douche, simply contact child protective services. To me it seems like you really want a boyfriend or men to be attracted to you for you and from your posts and the way you interact and think, you seem pretty smart to me, you've simply fallen under unlucky circumstances.

 

[m0lly]

However, simply because your mother is a douchebag, that doesn't mean you should end it. Seems like your mother is the one who should be on this forum, not you. And if you don't have any money for food due to your mom being an absolute douche, simply contact child protective services. To me it seems like you really want a boyfriend or men to be attracted to you for you and from your posts and the way you interact and think, you seem pretty smart to me, you've simply fallen under unlucky circumstances.

Thw thing is, im 22 and work a decent job. I have enough money but i cant leave. I also have a wonderful boyfriend who gives me the attention and love i need. But with her my life is a living hell. Even if she die, my mind would be fucked up for the rest of my life. The abuse stay a lifelong. So i dont want her to win this battle. If i kill herself, she will finally be alone and die alone also.

 

[Galileo3630]

I've been abused by my step-father, he smashed my head to the floor on multiple ocassions when I was around 16, I'm 20 now and I want to leave this planet every day, but I live on cause of my girlfriend of 4 years, she's the love of my life and I don't know what I'd do without her, I'm in an even worse state than you, I can't even get a job cause I've left every job I worked for in my town. Talk to your boyfriend, I'm sure he'd share his thoughts on your situation and maybe even give you a solution, maybe you could go on a runaway story and live together somewhere faaaar away

 

[m0lly]

I've been abused by my step-father, he smashed my head to the floor on multiple ocassions when I was around 16, I'm 20 now and I want to leave this planet every day, but I live on cause of my girlfriend of 4 years, she's the love of my life and I don't know what I'd do without her, I'm in an even worse state than you, I can't even get a job cause I've left every job I worked for in my town. Talk to your boyfriend, I'm sure he'd share his thoughts on your situation and maybe even give you a solution, maybe you could go on a runaway story and live together somewhere faaaar away

I'm so happy for you that you have such an amazing girlfriend. You deserve the best. Fr. I hope one day you both get married and just live a happy life and you forget this forum.
I dont know if he would run away with me, but i doesnt have the power for that too. I'm so thankful that you show me the options and also told me a bit about your story.
You should be proud of yourself how far to come.

 

[glitterypearls]

I'm sorry you are dealing with this, my mom is a narcissist too and it makes life more than hard than it already is.

 

[Galileo3630]

I'm so happy for you that you have such an amazing girlfriend. You deserve the best. Fr. I hope one day you both get married and just live a happy life and you forget this forum.
I dont know if he would run away with me, but i doesnt have the power for that too. I'm so thankful that you show me the options and also told me a bit about your story.
You should be proud of yourself how far to come.

The least you could do is try hun, he's your boyfriend after all, I'm sure he loves you with this whole heart

 

[m0lly]

The least you could do is try hun, he's your boyfriend after all, I'm sure he loves you with this whole heart

He do. We wanted to get married this year but my mom doesnt allow it. Hes also the first man that let me thought about having own children. But i will never have that fairytale life. Maybe the next life

 

[Galileo3630]

He do. We wanted to get married this year but my mom doesnt allow it. Hes also the first man that let me thought about having own children. But i will never have that fairytale life. Maybe the next life

Ah, my life is as bad as it can get lmfao, abused all my life, only alcoholics around me my entire life, I don't socialize and talk to anyone, I get pushed away by everyone, get made fun of and everything you could imagine. But I'm sure that my girlfriend just like your boyfriend, could have a better life once we settle in together. So what if your mom doesn't allow that or this? She has no say in what you like, what you do or what you want to do. If you really want to go, I'm not here to stop you, I'm simply here to be the third eye that can see from a third perspective.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

My mother ruined my life for no good reason. It wasn't because she was bored, it wasn't because she was abused, it wasn't for finantial reasons. She just could and she did.

 

[eashanm]

My mother told me that it'd have been better that she killed me in her "womb". And I'm like it'd have actually been better

 

[Ki_Nam]

I live with my mom. I know she cares, but that's just mom being a mom. I don't really care. I'm numb and have already decided. I don't give a shit what she thinks when I'm gone. Or what anyone thinks for that matter. I held myself back long enough.