Story My Mistake.

[Coolgamer127]

My mistake was deluding myself into thinking anyone could ever love me. My own parents didn't, and all the mistakes I have ever made can be traced back to this one delusion of mine, a lack of love turns you into a needy pushover loser that wants to make everyone else happy even if it costs him his own happiness. Life was simpler when I knew that there was atleast 1 person who I know loved me unconditionally, but they're gone now and they are not coming back. So I don't think I should keep living, because I don't have any reason to and deep down I know that.

 

[jumpingoffpoint]

I really hear you and I'm sorry your parents are so rubbish. It does turn you into a pushover and a people pleaser. You can't even protect yourself from people who actively and obviously wish you harm. I know it's not a consolation but I've stopped being that in recent years and although my life is actually more fucked up than it's ever been, at least I'm not getting pushed over anymore. In my experience, while you are still here, it's worth little by little changing the way you respond to people so that you can protect yourself and do things for yourself instead of always for others. Also it's not your fault. Don't blame yourself. I really hope things get better for you.