My mind is deteriorating ™️

[Sleeper System]

I go through phases of deep depression. Usually during life changing moments or forks in the road that will impact the course of my life. That is happening now. But it feels like this might be the one that ends everything.

Whenever it hits its always the same. I come straight here and start posting and trying to purge myself of the thoughts. It's just becoming more and more clear that this might be it.

Always the same. I can no longer pretend and my mask falls off. I can't smile. Can't laugh. Holding back tears. Playing back in my head all the times I fucked up. Doubting every choice I want to make moving forward.


Always the same. I lose my appetite. As some who loves food to the point of obesity, for me not to feel like eating is really a problem. My stomach feels empty but I dont have the real urge to feed it. I only drink cold water and that's only because I start to feel dehydrated. My mouth starts to taste like poison sometimes as if my body is trying to kill itself. Wish it would work.

I'll spend the rest of the day in bed feeling like im dying but not actually. Fuck this life and this world.

 

[Theresnoescape]

Yeah I can relate, life is just so shit sometimes, it's a constant battle.

 

[slowlydying2mrrw]

Sometimes I wish I could get diabetes and go the easy way in a diabetic shock :/

 

[MourningFlower]

Sending you virtual comfort

 

[badatparties]

This world is a cosmic mistake. No one deserves to be on this shitty website. Sending you all the positive juju in the universe.

 

[Hollowman]

Mine has too. Wish I would've left decades ago.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Appetite gone. Wake up in horror. How could this possibly have been my life. There's no more hope for a better future. Just fear of the act, and daily responsibilities.