This is a continuation from my previous thread. I have quit my job due to an unreasonable and horrendous manager who made fun of me all shift long. I am happy to be free my parents were fine with it, I can't find another job which means I'm slowly running out of money, my parents are in my ear asking when I'll get a new job. I am trying but I have no energy left I've tried the whole time and I've been rejected every single time
My exam results came back, my parents were not particularly happy because I passed everything but not to an amazing degree, I feel like I can't get anything right, no matter what path or decisions I make it always leads to another part of my life going wrong. I should have tried harder but I'm struggling to keep going but I can't tell them. Today my mother had a go and screamed at me thinking it will motivate me to do better if I attend university. It has been my life goal to become a marine biologist and my university accepted me , I barely felt any happiness for it, it seems meaningless. Like my life never had value, like I shouldn't have existed in the first place, I'm not smart enough to provide anything valuable to this world due to my laziness. My parents and family know it, they are all disappointed with me, but I tried , I really did. I did the most I could but I wasn't enough, I'm a disgrace to my family. I want to ctb soon and I've decided on my method, I will drive to nearby cliffs around 25-30 minutes from my area and jump. I really don't want to be here anymore, the small joys in life just don't seem worth it, I want to die.
My exam results came back, my parents were not particularly happy because I passed everything but not to an amazing degree, I feel like I can't get anything right, no matter what path or decisions I make it always leads to another part of my life going wrong. I should have tried harder but I'm struggling to keep going but I can't tell them. Today my mother had a go and screamed at me thinking it will motivate me to do better if I attend university. It has been my life goal to become a marine biologist and my university accepted me , I barely felt any happiness for it, it seems meaningless. Like my life never had value, like I shouldn't have existed in the first place, I'm not smart enough to provide anything valuable to this world due to my laziness. My parents and family know it, they are all disappointed with me, but I tried , I really did. I did the most I could but I wasn't enough, I'm a disgrace to my family. I want to ctb soon and I've decided on my method, I will drive to nearby cliffs around 25-30 minutes from my area and jump. I really don't want to be here anymore, the small joys in life just don't seem worth it, I want to die.
