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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
I never had a life. It was all emptiness. A wrong up bringing by my family destroyed me. I will die with just 26 years. What a pathetic world we live in. Until the end I never understood this world and its people. I think I was right from the beginning incompatible with this world. I never liked it here. I wish I'd kill myself already with 16 I would have missed absolutely nothing besides more and more pain and suffering.
 
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k1m

Member
Feb 6, 2025
74
Do you want to talk?
 
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Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,722
A wrong kind of family can totally ruin your life. I understand how you feel. We should ideally have a game level freedom of choice. People should ideally be able to choose their parents, environment, way of life. And not just be pushed into holes.
 
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Unstable

Unstable

Losing it
Sep 14, 2025
10
hey im sorry to hear about your struggles, im not sure if this is a goodbye note or not but i hope you find peace i know life can be so incredibly unfair and you don't deserve that
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
625
I don't think there's anything to understand about this world. But I understand it could've been easier to exist in this world if you received love and care since the beginning. I'm really sorry you are suffering so much. And I really hope you can find the peace you deserve.
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
A wrong kind of family can totally ruin your life. I understand how you feel. We should ideally have a game level freedom of choice. People should ideally be able to choose their parents, environment, way of life. And not just be pushed into holes.
You are absolutely right. I had lots of bad luck in things I couldn't choose. I had so many sad moments in life. I remember one day in school when i was 17 we all had lunch people were with their friends laughing having fun etc. and i had my Chinese noodles which i ate alone in the cellar of the school. Or when I was 12 and it was 1am under the week and my parents had such a loud dispute until my mother called the cops and i was too afraid to go down and see the scene because i just wished i could disappear from that family. Or now when i sometimes at 4am cook food and at some point i feel cold and my brain tells me: now imagine u had a normal functioning life, you'd cook this tasty food for you and your girlfriend or friends and you'd all eat together and laugh etc but now in the darkness of 4am you'll sit totally alone at the table and will eat your food. There are so many sad stories in my life which i'll take with me its unbelievable how i managed it to live 26 years long, they feel like as if they were 60 years. It was always the deficits i had because of a wrong up bringing and because of the fear of aggressive disputes between my parents. I never had the chance to learn social skills, discipline, responsibility and so many other things important things which are so important for life…
 
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Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
800
These are literally my thoughts, only I wanted to die much earlier
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,177
I understand, I just wish to be free from all the suffering as well, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I hope you find the freedom you search for.
 
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Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
I understand, I just wish to be free from all the suffering as well, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I hope you find the freedom you search for.
My freedom will be to never again have to wake up and suffer
 

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