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I was born into a poor family and grew up in humiliation and deprivation. My parents were constantly arguing because they had no money. I was probably terrified by my environment from a very young age, feeling like I could starve to death at any moment, or be verbally abused for not doing well in school. I worked hard to get into university and even went on to graduate school, but a specialist at the hospital damaged my spine. A strange problem arose: my whole body was crooked, causing me great pain and making movement difficult. My legs also became crooked. I tried physical therapists to correct my posture, but there was no fundamental change. For a time, I managed to get by to a manageable level.But then a physical therapist taught me the wrong methods, which damaged my leg; it's now a bit like a reversed joint. I have many dreams. I want to become a narrative therapy therapist, to help those oppressed and humiliated by disgusting psychiatrists regain their dignity and pursue their dreams. I want to improve communication between people, to reduce arguments between partners, families, and even strangers. Many arguments arise between well-intentioned people because of the wrong words they use.I want to make the world a gentler and more equal place, and I want to join some organizations dedicated to improving the world.I want to become an astrologer because I think it's very interesting, and if I'm lucky, I can earn a living from it.I want to protect my dear ex-girlfriend for the rest of my life. She is the most adorable and innocent girl in the world, a fairytale come to life. I would give my life for her happiness.Because I'm sick, I have difficulty moving around, I'm desperate, and I'm angry at fate. Everyone thinks I'm a lazy person. I worked so hard to get into graduate school, which isn't easy in my country. How could I be a lazy person? How could I not work hard? Being sick has led to me being labeled with many misunderstood tags. I'm becoming less and less like myself. I don't accept this fate. I want to die. If I'm lucky, I'll go back to the past and rewrite my destiny.
What kind of story are you experiencing, and what kind of story do you want to have? If God gives you a chance...
 
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That's amazing that you got into graduate school! Sorry about what's happened but your dreams are just…there lovely how much you want to help and be there. Your ex sounds amazing, you want to be there for her which is so loving and caring of you. Life really seems like it did you wrong, though the way you described it. Makes your life and dreams something you want to fight for. The labels that other put on you are wrong, your story tells the opposite of what they say. You are worth fighting for. ❤️

(I know that sounds hypocritical since I'm pro choice but still do what will bring you the most peace.)
 

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