jawdropped123
Experienced
- Mar 19, 2022
- 219
I never had the guts to write a goodbye letter because i am unable to show my emotional side to my family and for the people who arent my family all i can do is be thankful.
The last eleven years of my life where very lonely. Even tho i had people around me i still couldnt share my thoughts, feeling and struggles.
Its very hard knowing that no one want to be around you because of your condition. Its painful being in isolation because no one can stand being around you. Its very hard being lied to by the people that is supposed to care the most about you. Its very painful that people are unkind to me when i go out without even knowing me at all.
I always take care of myself. Always. But with this condition other people assume you dont. So they are unkind to you. Even tho i have no control over it or a way to fix it. But i wish i did.
People take the relationships that they have for granted. Because a part of me wish that i had that.
I wish i was complaining about a guy that broke my heart or about the way thay i look, about the people around me or about being black in europe. Even tho these are some struggles that i have for me they are nothing compared to what ive mentioned up there.
I wish people where less judgemental and more accepting i mean maybe im asking for to much because if i was someone else i would be the one judging and assuming anyways. And in no way am i saying im a good person. Ive done and said things that wasn't nice before. And even tho those people will probably never see this...but im sorry.
Going back to my issue, i cant leave my house without people staring at me or reacting to me and im so ashamed about it that i made a decision to put a stop to this for my mental health and for other people.
The world is so beautiful and its filled with amazing people. I love nature so much its so beautiful i will miss that for sure. I love music so much its the only thing that makes me happy. Im so thankful for everyone that made me laugh.
Im truly sorry for everyone that had to deal with me especially for the past seven months. My condition is unfixable and even if its fixable im unable to live with this shame.
The last eleven years of my life where very lonely. Even tho i had people around me i still couldnt share my thoughts, feeling and struggles.
Its very hard knowing that no one want to be around you because of your condition. Its painful being in isolation because no one can stand being around you. Its very hard being lied to by the people that is supposed to care the most about you. Its very painful that people are unkind to me when i go out without even knowing me at all.
I always take care of myself. Always. But with this condition other people assume you dont. So they are unkind to you. Even tho i have no control over it or a way to fix it. But i wish i did.
People take the relationships that they have for granted. Because a part of me wish that i had that.
I wish i was complaining about a guy that broke my heart or about the way thay i look, about the people around me or about being black in europe. Even tho these are some struggles that i have for me they are nothing compared to what ive mentioned up there.
I wish people where less judgemental and more accepting i mean maybe im asking for to much because if i was someone else i would be the one judging and assuming anyways. And in no way am i saying im a good person. Ive done and said things that wasn't nice before. And even tho those people will probably never see this...but im sorry.
Going back to my issue, i cant leave my house without people staring at me or reacting to me and im so ashamed about it that i made a decision to put a stop to this for my mental health and for other people.
The world is so beautiful and its filled with amazing people. I love nature so much its so beautiful i will miss that for sure. I love music so much its the only thing that makes me happy. Im so thankful for everyone that made me laugh.
Im truly sorry for everyone that had to deal with me especially for the past seven months. My condition is unfixable and even if its fixable im unable to live with this shame.
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