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auti

auti

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Feb 10, 2026
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My name is Elizabeth. I'm 21 years old. And I'm going to fucking kill myself.

I feel so excited! I'm finally going home!

Let me not get too ahead of myself. I'm still waiting on a part of my method to come in the mail but it is expected by tomorrow. I've worked out most of the details. Tonight I will run a test for the scheduled email to ensure it runs smoothly. I will send one to the police office around 8ish hours after my attempt with my location so they can recover my body. I will be using a slightly remote wooded area which is important to me. After that I will schedule an email for my family with important information, but my note will be handwritten and left with my body. Tomorrow I will clean my room, shower, and do my makeup while I wait for my package. I saw someone say they wanted to do blue makeup to match the rest of their body and I think that is so cute so I will be stealing it >:3. My method is sn and I'll be taking 25g (I am just shy of 80 kg) along with 30mg metoclopramide, 50mg hydroxyzine, and 10mg oxycodone. I still need to pick up an antacid but I'll take double the listed amount for that. I'll prepare one spare drink in case I vomit. I had my last meal at around 2pm today so I'll be very ready. Are there any other details I am missing? I'll try to continue posting as I move through the process. Thank you to everyone who I've interacted with on this site, you've all been a blessing. This wouldn't have been possible without you guys!! :DD
 
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if_i_make_it

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Apr 30, 2026
32
good luck, I hope you find your peace Elizabeth ♥️
 
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Soumatou

Soumatou

Why Do Birds Fly?
Apr 28, 2026
10
may you find peaceful rest
 
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flufflepuff

flufflepuff

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Apr 19, 2026
10
goodluck! we'll be going around the same time with the same method. i hope we both can find peace :D
 
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Front Back

Student
Apr 27, 2026
107
Hope it's a smooth sail. Go find your peace, Elizabeth
 
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body_snatcher

body_snatcher

green and lonely
Jan 23, 2023
47
Good luck, I hope your journey is peaceful 💜
 
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Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
295
May you find your peace. Good luck, and have a safe journey, Elizabeth.
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
671
Notti Auti,your PFP always gave me a chuckle.You will be missed. See you on the other side.
 
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LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
310
Good luck and hope that what you find is better than what this world offered u
 
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auti

auti

Member
Feb 10, 2026
55
I'll try to continue posting as I move through the process.
I was gonna factory reset my phone and then destroy it but I changed my mind. I've finished wiping most of the unnecessary stuff for now. I'll leave my messages, photos, etc for my family to look through.
 
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chudcell

Chud life
Feb 20, 2026
59
Im so sorry you are going through this. Best wishes on your journey to the other side
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,392
Good luck! I hope you find peace :heart:
 
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Kanoh

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Dec 31, 2024
113
You seem determined and relieved. No SI kicking in at all?
 
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auti

Member
Feb 10, 2026
55
You seem determined and relieved. No SI kicking in at all?
It comes and goes. Will probably be feeling it more when time actually comes. I was talking to my brother and it hit hard bc I hate to hurt him but it has to be done.
 
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auti

Member
Feb 10, 2026
55
Update: I am terrified and exhausted. So not much different than usual.
 
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HeyBoogahJr

HeyBoogahJr

I'm still here.
Apr 25, 2026
60
My name is Elizabeth. I'm 21 years old. And I'm going to fucking kill myself.

I feel so excited! I'm finally going home!

Let me not get too ahead of myself. I'm still waiting on a part of my method to come in the mail but it is expected by tomorrow. I've worked out most of the details. Tonight I will run a test for the scheduled email to ensure it runs smoothly. I will send one to the police office around 8ish hours after my attempt with my location so they can recover my body. I will be using a slightly remote wooded area which is important to me. After that I will schedule an email for my family with important information, but my note will be handwritten and left with my body. Tomorrow I will clean my room, shower, and do my makeup while I wait for my package. I saw someone say they wanted to do blue makeup to match the rest of their body and I think that is so cute so I will be stealing it >:3. My method is sn and I'll be taking 25mg (I am just shy of 80 kg) along with 30mg metoclopramide, 50mg hydroxyzine, and 10mg oxycodone. I still need to pick up an antacid but I'll take double the listed amount for that. I'll prepare one spare drink in case I vomit. I had my last meal at around 2pm today so I'll be very ready. Are there any other details I am missing? I'll try to continue posting as I move through the process. Thank you to everyone who I've interacted with on this site, you've all been a blessing. This wouldn't have been possible without you guys!! :DD
I hope your happy with the decision you have come to. I'm sorry that you've come to this point in life. I hope you enjoy your home.

The blue make is cute tho, fr fr.
 
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ForestGhost

ForestGhost

PFP by user ropeburns&migranes
Aug 25, 2024
268
Hi, I just wanted to make sure you're aware that opioids are generally not recommended as part of the regimen because they slow gastric emptying and may induce nausea. They can effectively counteract the benefits of meto. If the analgesic effects are worth it for you and you're taking them with that risk in mind, that's fine of course.

Anxiety is understandable but if it's too much, just remember there's no shame in backing out and the rest of us will be here to support you.
 
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auti

Member
Feb 10, 2026
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Hi, I just wanted to make sure you're aware that opioids are generally not recommended as part of the regimen because they slow gastric emptying and may induce nausea. They can effectively counteract the benefits of meto. If the analgesic effects are worth it for you and you're taking them with that risk in mind, that's fine of course.

Anxiety is understandable but if it's too much, just remember there's no shame in backing out and the rest of us will be here to support you.
Yeah I'm just hoping it's worth the trade off. I experimented a bit and I think it should be okay.
 
Surek

Surek

Peaceful
Aug 26, 2025
67
My method is sn and I'll be taking 25mg
I don't know if I need to point this out, but you need to take it in grams, not milligrams
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auti

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Feb 10, 2026
55
I don't know if I need to point this out, but you need to take it in grams, not milligrams
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Ye that's what I meant lol shoulda checked before posting


I forgot how much fasting sucks damn I thought I'd be better off if I went for a long fast but I might break it now and start again. Realistically I don't need 24+ hours lolol
 
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