My goodbye.

[cloud;.]

Hi guys,

I haven't been here very long… but… tonight I have come to the conclusion that I am going to ctb, I know in my last post I mentioned that I was planning on doing it in November however my friend has supplied me with SN, and Methodone and I've seen a few different methods, I am in too much pain and can no longer wait anymore. If it fails I'll be back hopefully… but I just… I can't do it anymore, if I could text someone and give a timeline to guide people in the future I will, i have taken my first dosage of methodone now, and plan on taking another dosage later on tonight.

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

Wishing you peace

 

[Carcassus]

Wishing you nothing but peace and rest.

 

[cloud;.]

I'm about to have a load of alcohol too… one last drink ey…

 

[lost in the lilies]

I'm about to have a load of alcohol too… one last drink ey…

I hope you rest well and find the peace you're looking for

 

[eternalpace]

I hope you find your peace.

 

[hannu555]

Good luck with anything that happens

 

[MissAbyss]

️ I wish you eternal peace ️

 

[Malfunction]

I hope this is a peaceful end to your suffering. Best of luck friend.

 

[cloud;.]

So how does that work ..after talking with you and telling you about my attempted method, you turn around and say your about to take 140mg of methadone, some SN and asked if I could please say something nice about you to this community, same thing I had asked you to do. I fell like you were mocking me and that's not cool! Very immature. And I bet you don't even have methadone. You tried to mock me word for word in your PM. Smh

not to be rude but this was always the plan for me, you aren't me… you don't have to do anything, it's up to you entirely, but today I found out my dad died of cancer, and I lost a friend that ctb… what is uncool is you leaking dms in a forum I am saying goodbye, I took 140mg when I initially posted this and also stated in this post that I'm going to take another dosage later on and then the SN later on in the night…. it's not the same plan at all….

 

[cloud;.]

Really. How convenient and suspicious you are. You never mentioned anything about methadone or SN to me until I asked you to do me a favor on Facebook. You then pm me saying you are bout to ctb using methadone and asked if I could leave a word for the community about you. Of course I was shocked I just asked you to do the same thing, same method. I'm not stupid. And I'm done talking about this.

It appears you haven't read my thread at all, completely different method but… okay.. you do you. I won't have to worry anymore anyway soon.

 

[claracatchingthebus]

So how does that work ..after talking with you and telling you about my attempted method, you turn around and say your about to take 140mg of methadone, some SN and asked if I could please say something nice about you to this community, same thing I had asked you to do. I fell like you were mocking me and that's not cool! Very immature. And I bet you don't even have methadone. You tried to mock me word for word in your PM. Smh

@anonymous2025 Sometimes people do mock other people by doing weird mindfuckery stuff, copying them, etc...

But also sometimes coincidences happen...

It's hard to know. Maybe he thought your idea was good and is actually having a bad day? I have sometimes felt like people copy things I do and say, like stealing my vibe because they don't have anything, and so if it's actually that, sorry. But also, it could just be random.

Sorry life has been hard for you @cloud;. . I also lost my closest friend and am not doing well. I understand being exhausted. There's always narcan and 911 if you change your mind. Usually people don't come back after SN.

There are grief groups, you have options if you don't want to do this. Also, if you just found out you lost a family member, you're at the height of grief, it wont feel like this in months if you stick around.

 

[cloud;.]

@anonymous2025 Sometimes people do mock other people by doing weird mindfuckery stuff, copying them, etc...

But also sometimes coincidences happen...

It's hard to know. Maybe he thought your idea was good and is actually having a bad day? I have sometimes felt like people copy things I do and say, like stealing my vibe because they don't have anything, and so if it's actually that, sorry. But also, it could just be random.

Sorry life has been hard for you @cloud;. . I also lost my closest friend and am not doing well. I understand being exhausted. There's always narcan and 911 if you change your mind. Usually people don't come back after SN.

There are grief groups, you have options if you don't want to do this. Also, if you just found out you lost a family member, you're at the height of grief, it wont feel like this in months if you stick around.

… I had no ill intentions honestly, I'm sad he took it the way he did but.. yeah..

 

[claracatchingthebus]

… I had no ill intentions honestly, I'm sad he took it the way he did but.. yeah..

Based on the first post you wrote, it seems like you have ongoing depression. Have you tried the orthodox and unorthadox stuff? Antidepressants, ketamine running, , not-illegal mushrooms, etc? You said you have an education and are struggling to get by, it doesn't sound like you have any major health issues other than depression. I get it if you're over it and not willing to try anything else, but there are options out there. You can always get narcan and say you accidentally took a pill from a friend that you thought was tylenol; you can lie to get narcan if you change your mind. Sorry things suck right now, I understand how much things can be awful.

 

[cloud;.]

Based on the first post you wrote, it seems like you have ongoing depression. Have you tried the orthodox and unorthadox stuff? Antidepressants, ketamine running, , not-illegal mushrooms, etc? You said you have an education and are struggling to get by, it doesn't sound like you have any major health issues other than depression. I get it if you're over it and not willing to try anything else, but there are options out there. You can always get narcan and say you accidentally took a pill from a friend that you thought was tylenol; you can lie to get narcan if you change your mind. Sorry things suck right now, I understand how much things can be awful.

Sorry in advance if my typing is a bit off, I feel a little weird, but it's mainy suffering with depression since a young age and tody mixed in with the stuff with my dad dying today altho I wasn't close to him, it hurts a lot I badiclly have nobody left now bc my mom hates me and yea… i just want this to be peacefu i wanna be happy eternally, immA take the SN at 2am my time, this will probs be last timr i come onto this forum, thank you for trying to help me i apricate it, thank you for beinf nice to me
this is last time i come on here. SN at 2am. god blees

 

[Sad Mouse]

I wish you a peaceful journey.

 

[claracatchingthebus]

Sorry in advance if my typing is a bit off, I feel a little weird, but it's mainy suffering with depression since a young age and tody mixed in with the stuff with my dad dying today altho I wasn't close to him, it hurts a lot I badiclly have nobody left now bc my mom hates me and yea… i just want this to be peacefu i wanna be happy eternally, immA take the SN at 2am my time, this will probs be last timr i come onto this forum, thank you for trying to help me i apricate it, thank you for beinf nice to me
this is last time i come on here. SN at 2am. god blees

Ok. Wish we had chatted earlier, it's very hard to come back once you've taken sn, the antidote is methylene blue but it often won't work.
Hope you reconsider.

 

[itsgone2]

this will probs be last timr i come onto this forum, thank you for trying to help me i apricate it, thank you for beinf nice to me

I hope it's not the last time we hear from you.

 

[homeboundcripple]

All the best

 

[FadingSnowFake]

So sorry for the loss of your dad and for what you've been going through. Wishing you all the best

 

[telekon]

I really like your signature ""When all usefulness is over..." If you feel like there's any usefulness left in you for this world, please reconsider... @claracatchingthebus is right, you are at the height of your grief

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you desire

 

[cloud;.]

SN taken

 

[Nightfoot]

Sorry life brought you to this point. I hope you find peace.

 

[darksouls]

SN taken

goodbye

 

[Dark Mood]

Best wishes on your journey

 

[LostZombie]

Sweet dreams

 

[dissociation]

I hope you find peace.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Sorry it has come to this.I hope you've found what you were looking for. RIP

 

[ringo99]

I'm planning mine with SN today too. See you on the other side