C
cursedbynature64
Member
- Feb 23, 2024
- 71
Things in my life have taken a significant turn for the worst, and I've finally been pushed over the edge. I'm shaking from the fear but I know that even if I heal from what happened recently, my life is still a lost cause due a multitude of other factors.
I'm taking just SN, calculated for my body weight. I don't have AEs or anything like that. I haven't vomited in many years due to emetophobia so I'm hoping that will continue working in its prevention of throwing up. I have 2 bottles just in case.
If my family end up finding this. Please don't blame this site. I would've done it with or without it. With this site, at least my death won't be as painful as it might have otherwise been. My method before finding it was jumping off the local highway overpass and timing to be hit by a semi truck or bus.
If I end up chickening out and calling for help I'll probably post a comment in a few days. But I really hope I don't. I know this is what I want, despite how much my instincts might try to convince me otherwise.
Writing so much is just my way of delaying the inevitable. Once I click post I'm going to close out of this browser tab and drink the SN.
Wish me luck.
- C
I already threw up. Idk if there's enough for me to still die. If I don't I'll know in the morning. I don't have it in me to drink the second
I'm taking just SN, calculated for my body weight. I don't have AEs or anything like that. I haven't vomited in many years due to emetophobia so I'm hoping that will continue working in its prevention of throwing up. I have 2 bottles just in case.
If my family end up finding this. Please don't blame this site. I would've done it with or without it. With this site, at least my death won't be as painful as it might have otherwise been. My method before finding it was jumping off the local highway overpass and timing to be hit by a semi truck or bus.
If I end up chickening out and calling for help I'll probably post a comment in a few days. But I really hope I don't. I know this is what I want, despite how much my instincts might try to convince me otherwise.
Writing so much is just my way of delaying the inevitable. Once I click post I'm going to close out of this browser tab and drink the SN.
Wish me luck.
- C
I already threw up. Idk if there's enough for me to still die. If I don't I'll know in the morning. I don't have it in me to drink the second
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