Venting My gma said my mental illness is an excuse

[time.is.near]

I have a depression room. My grandma said I need to stop using my mental illness as an excuse and crutch to be lazy. I'm already off the deep end. O had to call an ambulance on my mom last night and getting back at 3 am and basically got no sleep. I'm already so close, and this has pushed me closer. I'm gonna start giving my things away today I think

 

[SVEN]

Pretty obvious your Gran has never endured any type of mental ill health herself.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

A lot of older people in particular tend to be ignorant when it comes to mental illness. I don't completely fault them for this, since many of them were never really educated on the topic and thus have a very poor understanding of it. It is, however, on them to try and learn about it, especially if they have family members or friends who are impacted by it. I wouldn't take anything that she says about you in regards to your mental illness and the effects of it seriously.

 

[beyonddone]

Unfortunately others have ABSOLUTELY NO CLUE what this pain feels like.
They are incredibly fortunate to not know what the pain of genuinely wanting to exit feels like.
I wish I didn't feel like this.
It is very upsetting to me (and im sure the majority of us) to just THINK about the fact that we want nothing other than to not be here anymore.
I have not found a single person that even TRIED to understand the way i feel.
It's always … " so u just wanna give up"
As if i actually want to feel like i do
I only can talk about how i feel on here… no one else understands or tries to understand.

I wanted to be done a while ago after realizing i just can't fight this
anymore, but all i can think about is my child, who has been alienated against me by his father and it stops me. Soon it won't continue to stop me.
I hope you find someone to talk to that tried to understand your mental health issues and be supportive

 

[Overwhelmed52]

I feel you. It is so hard to explain to people who haven't been through it. I wish there was definite proof to convince people that this is real pain. If I had a broken leg, I could show them the x-ray and they would get it. It is real.

 

[beyonddone]

When i told my dad how i felt, he literally told me …
"You might as well do it"
He was serious
Whether he just said that or not, idk..
How can one tell when you breakdown hysterically telling someone you dont want to live anymore and all you think about are ways to go and they reply with that..?
I havent spoken to him in months..
He met a new women and told me to go live in my car after he begged me to move in with him initially cuz he was "struggling"

I literally hate everyone anymore
Sorry
Vented too much