Story My friend CTB last night

[sarahR]

A good friend of mine from here took her own life yesterday. I was the last person she texted, but due to the time difference I was asleep. I'm in tears, and wish I could've replied to that message! I'm not gonna mention her username. I guess she banned herself cause I can't find her. RIP my black snow flake.... thank you for the endless chats about life and death, I'm gonna miss your WhatsApp messages every morning. I've lit my last candle for you. May you find peace and thank you for saying the most beautiful words to me someone has said. I love you V

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm sorry for your loss, and I know how sad it is to wake up and find a goodbye. It's happened a couple times in this group for me. I hope your friend has found peace and relief, and is no longer suffering. Sending many hugs.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Sorry to hear of your loss. Hopefully your friend is at peace now.

 

[sarahR]

I'm sorry for your loss, and I know how sad it is to wake up and find a goodbye. It's happened a couple times in this group for me. I hope your friend has found peace and relief, and is no longer suffering. Sending many hugs.

Thanks Rosey. Just feel guilty for not texting back. That will haunt me forever though. I wouldn't try and stop her. But I would have liked to say a proper goodbye. Hugs back.
This disease is insane! F you depression!

 

[laeloth]

my deepest condolences. Rest in peace

 

[Deleted member 24152]

I'm deeply sorry about your loss, If you want to talk, feel free to text me.

 

[sarahR]

I'm deeply sorry about your loss, If you want to talk, feel free to text me.

Thank you. I've screamed and cried in the balcony for almost an hour! Thanks for the kind words. I felt like I lost a family member. I hate depression so much! What a monster this disease is....

 

[Lost.]

I am sorry for your loss. Poor girl. :(
I expereced this too.

 

[sarahR]

I am sorry for your loss. Poor girl. :(
I expereced this too.

I think I don't wanna get attached to anyone else here anymore. We all know where we are going.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

I lost a friend on here Sunday night. We used to have great stupid chats. I still hope for a message from them, but I have to be happy they are free of anymore pain from this world. Most of us will go at one point and leave people behind we chat to. But it doesn't get any easier when they leave

 

[sarahR]

I lost a friend on here Sunday night. We used to have great stupid chats. I still hope for a message from them, but I have to be happy they are free of anymore pain from this world. Most of us will go at one point and leave people behind we chat to. But it doesn't get any easier when they leave

Yeah she was my first whatsapp message each morning and before I go to bed. I feel so lost for her silence. She messaged me to say goodbye and I was a sleep! I'm not gonna get attached to anyone here anymore. Better that way...

 

[degeneratewaste]

being here and losing people you connected with never gets easier. it's so hard to deal with these losses, I know, and it is so hard to try and stop yourself from connecting with people here too, especially if you have a big heart.

I'm sorry for your loss, @sarahR, sending hugs. RIP <3

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Yeah she was my first whatsapp message each morning and before I go to bed. I feel so lost for her silence. She messaged me to say goodbye and I was a sleep! I'm not gonna get attached to anyone here anymore. Better that way...

I stay in PMs only now. Thankfully people I am chatting with are not going to ctb for a while so it should be me going next. But I feel the loss and understand.

 

[sarahR]

being here and losing people you connected with never gets easier. it's so hard to deal with these losses, I know, and it is so hard to try and stop yourself from connecting with people here too, especially if you have a big heart.

I'm sorry for your loss, @sarahR, sending hugs. RIP <3

Thank you. Yeah I'm going to connect less so I don't suffer like this anymore. Or anyone in case it's me. Hugs back.

 

[sarahR]

Thanks to all the support everyone! It was a long night. Hugs to all I love you!

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Thanks to all the support everyone! It was a long night. Hugs to all I love you!

Here whenever you need us.

 

[angie]

A good friend of mine from here took her own life yesterday. I was the last person she texted, but due to the time difference I was asleep. I'm in tears, and wish I could've replied to that message! I'm not gonna mention her username. I guess she banned herself cause I can't find her. RIP my black snow flake.... thank you for the endless chats about life and death, I'm gonna miss your WhatsApp messages every morning. I've lit my last candle for you. May you find peace and thank you for saying the most beautiful words to me someone has said. I love you V

Does there name not just get scored out ? or can you remove yourself totally from the site ?

 

[sarahR]

Does there name not just get scored out ? or can you remove yourself totally from the site ?

No I won't remove myself from this site. I need you guys. You are my family.

Here whenever you need us.

Thanks Gromit

 

[angie]

No I won't remove myself from this site. I need you guys. You are my family.

Thanks Gromit

I was meaning about your friend !! i was saying usually peoples names get a score through them when they have ctb . but i am unsure if your friend is able to take themselves totally off the site leaving no trace of themselves on it .

 

[sarahR]

I was meaning about your friend !! i was saying usually peoples names get a score through them when they have ctb . but i am unsure if your friend is able to take themselves totally off the site leaving no trace of themselves on it .

She didn't post a goodbye thread here. I can look up her name and find it, but when I click on it it doesn't show anything. I guess she must have self banned or something. Sorry if I misunderstood you. Hugs

 

[angie]

She didn't post a goodbye thread here. I can look up her name and find it, but when I click on it it doesn't show anything. I guess she must have self banned or something. Sorry if I misunderstood you. Hugs

I thought perhaps you couldnt find her name . no need for sorry texting always creates confusion lol

 

[sarahR]

I thought perhaps you couldnt find her name . no need for sorry texting always creates confusion lol

Yeah you write it does

 

[Metalhead]

Thank you. I've screamed and cried in the balcony for almost an hour! Thanks for the kind words. I felt like I lost a family member. I hate depression so much! What a monster this disease is....

Depression and anhedonia has robbed me of any quality of life, here if you ever want to chat or vent.

 

[Sherri]

I'm sorry to hear that hun, it's always sad when someone we know even from here goes. May she found peace and happiness. Sorry for your loss.

 

[sarahR]

Depression and anhedonia has robbed me of any quality of life, here if you ever want to chat or vent.

Same here I'm basically a waste of space. That's how I see myself. Glad my friend is at peace now. But I'm sure gonna miss her messages.

 

[aminend]

RIP
Do u know his/hers method?

 

[sarahR]

RIP
Do u know his/hers method?

Sn I think. Not sure she didn't say. But I know she had sn.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I'm very sorry for your loss *hugs*

 

[Metalhead]

Same here I'm basically a waste of space. That's how I see myself. Glad my friend is at peace now. But I'm sure gonna miss her messages.

I know it's not the same Sarah, but if you ever want to chat/vent just send a message, sending you a big hug regardless

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Same here I'm basically a waste of space. That's how I see myself. Glad my friend is at peace now. But I'm sure gonna miss her messages.

You are not a waste of space. You are a valued member of this family. Happy to chat if you feel up to it