Discussion my first post here

[ihatemyseIf]

Is suicide one of the first things that comes to your mind when you wake up? it happens to me almost everyday

 

[U. A.]

Welcome, unfortunately.

When things are bad, yes. When they're less bad, sometimes. Once upon a time, never.
It is always what I go to bed with though. Part of the reason my sleep habits have become so bad, staying up till morning. I just don't want to stare that feeling in the face without anything between us.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

Is suicide one of the first things that comes to your mind when you wake up? it happens to me almost everyday

Welcome. Yes unfortunately. i have really bad passive suicidal ideation and most of the time I wish that I could just never wake up to face another day.

 

[No blackangel]

Yes, mostly. Evenings are better.

 

[Hollowillow]

Is suicide one of the first things that comes to your mind when you wake up? it happens to me almost everyday

No, my 1rst thought is physical & emotional pain... Then my 2nd thought is regretting waking up and wanting to die.

Please don't hate yourself. Become a misanthrope and hate everyone else
I'm a misanthrope but I make exceptions for everyone here.

I'm so happy to have a newember! I saw friends die today...... Thank you.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course it is. Whenever I wake up I'm always filled with dread of having to endure another day and also disappointment that I did not peacefully pass away in my sleep. I'm very tired of everything.

 

[Ravel]

Yes. every time i wake up i ask myself why am i still here

 

[Елена]

I think about it all the time. I only don't think about it when I'm asleep

 

[Sourdough]

Is suicide one of the first things that comes to your mind when you wake up? it happens to me almost everyday

I always have this peace in the morning that lasts for about 10 seconds before I remember who I am and then yes, I want to die

 

[WorldRoamer]

I remember during the worst days it happend very often Just a moment after wake up and flow of negative thoughts started.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

Of course it is. Whenever I wake up I'm always filled with dread of having to endure another day and also disappointment that I did not peacefully pass away in my sleep. I'm very tired of everything.

I feel so much the same. I wish every night would be my last. Then when it's not, I go pretend for another day. I am ready for some peace.

 

[CTB Dream]

Welcome feel welcome here, sorry life made suffer hope best, truth always ctb mind morning evening most important thing leave life at least have option go leave peacefully

 

[brokensea]

Mornings are the worst time. I know I have to live through another day.

 

[Another Day Empty]

Is suicide one of the first things that comes to your mind when you wake up? it happens to me almost everyday

Maybe not the first, but in the top 5...

 

[AintNoWayOut]

maybe not directly suicide but definitely feelings of "fuck, another day of this shit..." and just generally wanting to not exist. but i rarely think of doing the act, i just want my life to either improve drastically or to simply stop existing. so maybe in that sense i do think of it.

i really do hate the feeling of waking up to reality though, especially if i was having a good dream or resting peacefully. to wake up to the same routine and problems is always a huge bummer, i cant really recall the last time i was excited to wake up and looking forward to the day.

 

[TheManIllNeverBe]

Is suicide one of the first things that comes to your mind when you wake up? it happens to me almost everyday

Welcome. And yes... pretty much every single day. I wake up and lie in bed for a while (sometimes hours) playing out all of the ways I could end things, over and over again, in my head until I finally get up the motivation to drag myself out of bed.

 

[peaches]

Is suicide one of the first things that comes to your mind when you wake up? it happens to me almost everyday

Yes. Most days. Many, many nights.
It is extremely difficult to live like this.