Discussion my final week plan~

[waistcoat]

i'll be ctbing early morning (like, 7/8am) august 31st, i feel most alive at energised at night, with 7/8am being my preferred time to sleep, skipping most of the day, so this will be a normal time for me drift off to sleep one last time.

the week leading up to aug 31st i have a few things planned

the week prior i've planned a meet-up with my friends, we'll go do something and then probably relax at my apartment in the evening, they won't know it at the time, but that will be the last time most will see me alive, it'll be a nice way for me to say goodbye, and to see them one last time, i think it will also help them(?)

in the final week im also going to finish writing all of my notes, ive made drafts of most on my phone, but i need to finish them dkjxjx

the last 48h will look like this:

morning 29th: start 48h sn regime

evening 29th: i'll take my girlfriend out for a nice meal somewhere, we don't live together so she'll probably end up coming back to my place for the evening, otherwise id say 30th xkxjcj

evening 30th: i'll get a takeout from my favourite restaurant around 7/8pm so my body has time to clear it by the time i want to ctb, ill also probably play some video games or watch tv shows if i haven't completed my list by then

morning 31st: ded

(re: my tv show list, i have a list of tv shows i wanna finish / rewatch before i ctb :3, about 1/3rd ish thru it atm)

 

[damienlerone03]

i'll be ctbing early morning (like, 7/8am) august 31st, i feel most alive at energised at night, with 7/8am being my preferred time to sleep, skipping most of the day, so this will be a normal time for me drift off to sleep one last time.

the week leading up to aug 31st i have a few things planned

the week prior i've planned a meet-up with my friends, we'll go do something and then probably relax at my apartment in the evening, they won't know it at the time, but that will be the last time most will see me alive, it'll be a nice way for me to say goodbye, and to see them one last time, i think it will also help them(?)

in the final week im also going to finish writing all of my notes, ive made drafts of most on my phone, but i need to finish them dkjxjx

the last 48h will look like this:

morning 29th: start 48h sn regime

evening 29th: i'll take my girlfriend out for a nice meal somewhere, we don't live together so she'll probably end up coming back to my place for the evening, otherwise id say 30th xkxjcj

evening 30th: i'll get a takeout from my favourite restaurant around 7/8pm so my body has time to clear it by the time i want to ctb, ill also probably play some video games or watch tv shows if i haven't completed my list by then

morning 31st: ded

(re: my tv show list, i have a list of tv shows i wanna finish / rewatch before i ctb :3, about 1/3rd ish thru it atm)

I looked at your profile a couple times and wanted to say something nice to you but never found any words.. :(
I guess i should ask now though! what tv shows are on your list?

 

[waistcoat]

I looked at your profile a couple times and wanted to say something nice to you but never found any words.. :(
I guess i should ask now though! what tv shows are on your list?

its the thought that counts ;3x

ive got quite a long list… but currently im watching dexter, the blacklist & solo leveling

i want to rewatch gabriel dropout and frieren, fairytale if i have time but i doubt it as its very long. i also need to finish my rewatch of the expanse.. im like 1 season from finishing

i havent started yet but i want to watch serial experiments lain, game of thrones and billions

other shows that ill watch if i have time are silicon valley, seven deadly sins, agents of shield, house of cards, chernobyl, queens gambit, news room, star trek discovery (season 3) and social network

…. there's a lot…. i doubt im gonna be able to watch even half of them, i also have a list of movies but ckcjxjx no hope in that

maybe i should ask people in my notes to watch one of the shows each in my memory XDDD

 

[damienlerone03]

its the thought that counts ;3x

ive got quite a long list… but currently im watching dexter, the blacklist & solo leveling

i want to rewatch gabriel dropout and frieren, fairytale if i have time but i doubt it as its very long. i also need to finish my rewatch of the expanse.. im like 1 season from finishing

i havent started yet but i want to watch serial experiments lain, game of thrones and billions

other shows that ill watch if i have time are silicon valley, seven deadly sins, agents of shield, house of cards, chernobyl, queens gambit, news room, star trek discovery (season 3) and social network

…. there's a lot…. i doubt im gonna be able to watch even half of them, i also have a list of movies but ckcjxjx no hope in that

maybe i should ask people in my notes to watch one of the shows each in my memory XDDD

LMAOOOO all this AND the video games

A lot? Nahhhhhhhhhh you're just very uhhhhh very plentiful of ideas!!!
some of these are really good though (i'm sure all of them but im talking about the ones i recognize)!

I really wanna watch chernobyl! Just finished squid games the other day and I was watching weak hero on netflix.
I'm waiting for the new season of stranger things to come out i've been watching it since i was like 11 or something!!

Ahhh i tried watching frieren but got bored and dropped it and all my friends have been hating on me for that!! I have to pick it back up and rewatch! Solo leveling is really good! I actually didn't watch it tho, i read it

Another one im waiting for is alice in borderland it's so good!

BUT NOT A BAD IDEA TO HAVE PEOPLE WATCH THESE IN YOUR MEMORY!! you know what i'll rewatch frieren and i'll watch gabriel dropout (i'm assuming thats your favorite cuz it's your profile picture and banner)

ALSO HOW DID YOU GET A BLURRY PIC OF SASU ON THAT BANNER? i reverse searched that image like a long time ago and found out it belonged to that anime but like I was always so curious on how you did it! do you have like insane editing skills or something or did you draw it?!

Like there is NO way thats NOT sasu

 

[waistcoat]

LMAOOOO all this AND the video games

A lot? Nahhhhhhhhhh you're just very uhhhhh very plentiful of ideas!!!
some of these are really good though (i'm sure all of them but im talking about the ones i recognize)!

I really wanna watch chernobyl! Just finished squid games the other day and I was watching weak hero on netflix.
I'm waiting for the new season of stranger things to come out i've been watching it since i was like 11 or something!!

Ahhh i tried watching frieren but got bored and dropped it and all my friends have been hating on me for that!! I have to pick it back up and rewatch! Solo leveling is really good! I actually didn't watch it tho, i read it

Another one im waiting for is alice in borderland it's so good!

BUT NOT A BAD IDEA TO HAVE PEOPLE WATCH THESE IN YOUR MEMORY!! you know what i'll rewatch frieren and i'll watch gabriel dropout (i'm assuming thats your favorite cuz it's your profile picture and banner)

ALSO HOW DID YOU GET A BLURRY PIC OF SASU ON THAT BANNER? i reverse searched that image like a long time ago and found out it belonged to that anime but like I was always so curious on how you did it! do you have like insane editing skills or something or did you draw it?!
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Like there is NO way thats NOT sasu

you NEEEEEED to complete frieren omggggggg its so good plsplspls

and yes its very long xkcjcjc ive been making this list for years… i have uhh… missed out some too cjcjxjx its about 2x as long ckcjjx

i need to watch sg s3 also jcjxjx and im sad i wont see stranger things new season :( i love that show (same with frieren s2) and yes omg pls do watch gabriel dropout :3 im saving that for my final few days xkxjx

as for how i did my banner ckcjx i photoshopped it xkx im somewhat decent at photoshop n it was just a simple image transform and gaussian blur xD

 

[damienlerone03]

you NEEEEEED to complete frieren omggggggg its so good plsplspls

and yes its very long xkcjcjc ive been making this list for years… i have uhh… missed out some too cjcjxjx its about 2x as long ckcjjx

i need to watch sg s3 also jcjxjx and im sad i wont see stranger things new season :( i love that show (same with frieren s2) and yes omg pls do watch gabriel dropout :3 im saving that for my final few days xkxjx

as for how i did my banner ckcjx i photoshopped it xkx im somewhat decent at photoshop n it was just a simple image transform and gaussian blur xD

YESSSS I'LL COMPLETLE FRIEERENNN

HAHAHAHA making a list for years is so relatable. back when i was like 9 years old i used to make my list on a email draft I just added shows and movies to it and never watched like 30% of it all Last i added to the draft was like when I was 14 or something i haven't seen it in quite some time.

Stranger things is so random so there is no way in hell to predict it S1 will got kidnapped by some bipedal face splitting dogs, S2 a huge cloud monster, S3 the russians, S4 some villian with tentacles and a dad bod wonder what S5 would be.

GAUSSIAN BLUR OF COURSEEEEEEEE HOW COULD I FORGETTTTT i haven't used photoshop in like 4 years but gaussian blur was my go to i should've known

BUT YES ILL WATCH FRIEREN AND GABRIEL DROPOUT LMK IF THERE ARE OTHERS YOU WOULD SUGGEST!!

 

[getoutgirl]

Hi I'm really sorry to hear you've reached that point :(
I've seen you post here and there and you seem like a really nice person. I don't know your reasons or how sure of it all you are, or if you'd like to live at all were your circumstances different. But in any case, whatever you do, I hope you enjoy these next two months to the fullest. I hope all the best happens to you these days <3

Also, I too made a list of my favourite movies I wanted to rewatch before I killed myself, and 2 more for albums and a few videogames. I still have them in my phone lol, they got a lil bus icon so no one could interpret what that list meant. I watched/listened/played some of them before and after I cancelled my own attempt, and its got a weird vibe to it now. They still fill my heart, which is rare, so I also hope you get a lot of enjoyment from all of those. Binge watch!! Use 2 screens for double media consumption! Hacks!!!

 

[waistcoat]

YESSSS I'LL COMPLETLE FRIEERENNN

HAHAHAHA making a list for years is so relatable. back when i was like 9 years old i used to make my list on a email draft I just added shows and movies to it and never watched like 30% of it all Last i added to the draft was like when I was 14 or something i haven't seen it in quite some time.

Stranger things is so random so there is no way in hell to predict it S1 will got kidnapped by some bipedal face splitting dogs, S2 a huge cloud monster, S3 the russians, S4 some villian with tentacles and a dad bod wonder what S5 would be.

GAUSSIAN BLUR OF COURSEEEEEEEE HOW COULD I FORGETTTTT i haven't used photoshop in like 4 years but gaussian blur was my go to i should've known

BUT YES ILL WATCH FRIEREN AND GABRIEL DROPOUT LMK IF THERE ARE OTHERS YOU WOULD SUGGEST!!

ckcjxjxjx yea i like making lists of shit ckxjxjx
stranger things s5 gonna be uhmmmmm…. cthulhu

and sjsjsj good :3 frieren is peek

Hi I'm really sorry to hear you've reached that point :(
I've seen you post here and there and you seem like a really nice person. I don't know your reasons or how sure of it all you are, or if you'd like to live at all were your circumstances different. But in any case, whatever you do, I hope you enjoy these next two months to the fullest. I hope all the best happens to you these days <3

Also, I too made a list of my favourite movies I wanted to rewatch before I killed myself, and 2 more for albums and a few videogames. I still have them in my phone lol, they got a lil bus icon so no one could interpret what that list meant. I watched/listened/played some of them before and after I cancelled my own attempt, and its got a weird vibe to it now. They still fill my heart, which is rare, so I also hope you get a lot of enjoyment from all of those. Binge watch!! Use 2 screens for double media consumption! Hacks!!!

hey thank you for your kind words

my reasons have been shared in detail before but the tldr is incurable mental health issues from trauma such as DID & PTSD, along with chronic pain and overall degrading physical health

i am pretty sure on my date, but i do have a lot of big life events happening in the 5 weeks leading up to my date, so who knows, maybe ill find a reason to push it back by a lil bit longer

 

[getoutgirl]

my reasons have been shared in detail before but the tldr is incurable mental health issues from trauma such as DID & PTSD, along with chronic pain and overall degrading physical health

i am pretty sure on my date, but i do have a lot of big life events happening in the 5 weeks leading up to my date, so who knows, maybe ill find a reason to push it back by a lil bit longer

that does sound like a lot of shit to deal with :/
but hey if the latter happens, wishing all the best luck on that, do let us know !
but also in general just have fun these days, eat life

 

[damienlerone03]

ckcjxjxjx yea i like making lists of shit ckxjxjx
stranger things s5 gonna be uhmmmmm…. cthulhu

and sjsjsj good :3 frieren is peek

hey thank you for your kind words

my reasons have been shared in detail before but the tldr is incurable mental health issues from trauma such as DID & PTSD, along with chronic pain and overall degrading physical health

i am pretty sure on my date, but i do have a lot of big life events happening in the 5 weeks leading up to my date, so who knows, maybe ill find a reason to push it back by a lil bit longer

HAHAHHA cthulhu would be funny af

But yeah just like getoutgirl said you seem like a bright and bubbly person from my casual sasu profile stalking sessions ( >:3 hehehe) so yeah i really hope things get better for you either way you pick!

SORRY if im dragging the convo i was just curious, you said you would also play some games too! do you have any names or a list of them too LMAO

 

[waistcoat]

HAHAHHA cthulhu would be funny af

But yeah just like getoutgirl said you seem like a bright and bubbly person from my casual sasu profile stalking sessions ( >:3 hehehe) so yeah i really hope things get better for you either way you pick!

SORRY if im dragging the convo i was just curious, you said you would also play some games too! do you have any names or a list of them too LMAO

sxsknxs thank you <3 you're too kind djcdcd, i hope it does get better as well as i wanna spend more time with my girlfriend xsxjk but from a physical health standpoint it will only get worse, maybe mentally it will get better tho, we'll see xjsx

and no no you're not at all ;3 i like talking!!

for games i like terraria, minecraft, celeste & ark survival evolved, but i have never "completed" any, like for minecraft and terraria i have never solo gotten to end-game without cheating kxjx and ark:se i have barely even scratched the surface of despite hundredsss of hours of play time... i jus like the dinos. i think it would be nice to complete them, but i am not good enough too xjsxs

i also play some rythmn games like osu but that's about it, i honestly rarely play games tbh, i mostly just code and watch tv xkx

wbu?

 

[lifeisadream]

You've got some lovely plans for your final week. If you choose to stay here with us longer it would be fab but if you decide to stick with your date I hope everything goes smoothly & you have eternal peace. Sending you much love & hugs.

 

[waistcoat]

You've got some lovely plans for your final week. If you choose to stay here with us longer it would be fab but if you decide to stick with your date I hope everything goes smoothly & you have eternal peace. Sending you much love & hugs.

tysm <3

 

[damienlerone03]

sxsknxs thank you <3 you're too kind djcdcd, i hope it does get better as well as i wanna spend more time with my girlfriend xsxjk but from a physical health standpoint it will only get worse, maybe mentally it will get better tho, we'll see xjsx

and no no you're not at all ;3 i like talking!!

for games i like terraria, minecraft, celeste & ark survival evolved, but i have never "completed" any, like for minecraft and terraria i have never solo gotten to end-game without cheating kxjx and ark:se i have barely even scratched the surface of despite hundredsss of hours of play time... i jus like the dinos. i think it would be nice to complete them, but i am not good enough too xjsxs

i also play some rythmn games like osu but that's about it, i honestly rarely play games tbh, i mostly just code and watch tv xkx

wbu?

asdhygasdg sorry for the late response! i took some pain meds cuz i had surgery earlier this week (nothing bad just wisdom tooth extraction!) and the pain meds always make me so sleepy so i always doze off!!!

i hope you spend a lot of time with your girlfriend! I have a lot of funny stories about my ex, like our first date was a study date together at the library and we were even about to kiss but then my balls started acting up and i had to get rushed to the ER!! i got cockblocked by my own balls!!! god that story is so fun to tell at parties.

HOPEFULLY IT GETS BETTER MENTALLY FOR YOU!! YOU SEEM LIKE SUCH A FUN PERSON TO BE FRIENDS WITHHHHHH!!!!
oh good im glad you like talking! I love talking too!! :D

omg im such a minecraft boy. ever since i was 5 i would go crazy over it. i lit grew up on minecraft. i don't play as much but i LOVE minecraft!! HAHAHA i've only soloed the game once (with no cheats) despite playing for like uhhh (quick maths!) 14 years! oh god i need to lock in LMAO

i remember my friend tried to hook me onto terraria when i was like 10 and there were SO many things it overloaded my brain! fighting the flying eye, wall of flesh, and the torch god or whatever its called was super fun though!

Oh i've never played ark before but i've seen videos on it and it's so fucking funny lmfao with the dinos chasing u through like every piece of terrain possible.

I tried osu but it's pretty hard for me The only rhythm game i play is beatsaber! I love VR games i have an oculus 2. I have beatsaber, blade and sorcery, phasmophobia, five nights at freddy's, and a lot of horror games.

I LOVE horror games they're really fun, and horror movies too! VR ones scare the shit out of me yet i keep playing them LMAO, roblox ones are okay.

I haven't played much either recently i've been studying a lot and applying to jobs. I'm super tech based but i love working with little kids so i actually had an interview at this daycare today! it went well so fingers crossed!!

OHHHHH YOU CODE???? NO WAYYYY ME TOOOOOO!!!!! i remember one time back in junior year of highschool I actually tried to code a whole ass RPG game with sprites and everything JUST for my computer teacher to give me a good rec letter in college i ended up not even asking him LMFAO

I read a lot of your profile posts and some are in japanese, are you from japan? a couple of my friends once went there for a vacation trip and showed me photos of the countryside and i REALLLLLY wanna go there now AHHHHHHHHHH but im stuck in STUPID america. i'll deff go there once i have time!

 

[waistcoat]

asdhygasdg sorry for the late response! i took some pain meds cuz i had surgery earlier this week (nothing bad just wisdom tooth extraction!) and the pain meds always make me so sleepy so i always doze off!!!

i hope you spend a lot of time with your girlfriend! I have a lot of funny stories about my ex, like our first date was a study date together at the library and we were even about to kiss but then my balls started acting up and i had to get rushed to the ER!! i got cockblocked by my own balls!!! god that story is so fun to tell at parties.

HOPEFULLY IT GETS BETTER MENTALLY FOR YOU!! YOU SEEM LIKE SUCH A FUN PERSON TO BE FRIENDS WITHHHHHH!!!!
oh good im glad you like talking! I love talking too!! :D

omg im such a minecraft boy. ever since i was 5 i would go crazy over it. i lit grew up on minecraft. i don't play as much but i LOVE minecraft!! HAHAHA i've only soloed the game once (with no cheats) despite playing for like uhhh (quick maths!) 14 years! oh god i need to lock in LMAO

i remember my friend tried to hook me onto terraria when i was like 10 and there were SO many things it overloaded my brain! fighting the flying eye, wall of flesh, and the torch god or whatever its called was super fun though!

Oh i've never played ark before but i've seen videos on it and it's so fucking funny lmfao with the dinos chasing u through like every piece of terrain possible.

I tried osu but it's pretty hard for me The only rhythm game i play is beatsaber! I love VR games i have an oculus 2. I have beatsaber, blade and sorcery, phasmophobia, five nights at freddy's, and a lot of horror games.

I LOVE horror games they're really fun, and horror movies too! VR ones scare the shit out of me yet i keep playing them LMAO, roblox ones are okay.

I haven't played much either recently i've been studying a lot and applying to jobs. I'm super tech based but i love working with little kids so i actually had an interview at this daycare today! it went well so fingers crossed!!

OHHHHH YOU CODE???? NO WAYYYY ME TOOOOOO!!!!! i remember one time back in junior year of highschool I actually tried to code a whole ass RPG game with sprites and everything JUST for my computer teacher to give me a good rec letter in college i ended up not even asking him LMFAO

I read a lot of your profile posts and some are in japanese, are you from japan? a couple of my friends once went there for a vacation trip and showed me photos of the countryside and i REALLLLLY wanna go there now AHHHHHHHHHH but im stuck in STUPID america. i'll deff go there once i have time!

wait hold on ur like literally so similar to me skjdnkjcsncd like the whole minecraft kid to terraria overload pipeline omgggg skjdcns i also have vr and used to play beatsaber but i can't rlly now cus of my health xsskks

also jssxs when i quoted ur post it added an extra paragraph asking if i'm japanese that isn't showing on the main post xksm but no i am not, i've been slowly learning japanese and have visited a few times (currently in japan atm xskxs) i have quite a few japanese friends and i enjoy learning new stuff so i thought i might as well give it a go and it's quite fun ^-^

 

[damienlerone03]

wait hold on ur like literally so similar to me skjdnkjcsncd like the whole minecraft kid to terraria overload pipeline omgggg skjdcns i also have vr and used to play beatsaber but i can't rlly now cus of my health xsskks

also jssxs when i quoted ur post it added an extra paragraph asking if i'm japanese that isn't showing on the main post xksm but no i am not, i've been slowly learning japanese and have visited a few times (currently in japan atm xskxs) i have quite a few japanese friends and i enjoy learning new stuff so i thought i might as well give it a go and it's quite fun ^-^

i'll reply to this all on discord!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Whatever you gonna decide to do I wish you all the best and I hope you find peace.

 

[darksouls]

Dexter is also one of my favorites
I dont know the others
I have watched all episodes of Game of Thrones
they are great
I hope you like them