My final goodbye will be at 10:00 p.m.

[Deleted member 23774]

I can't take the guilt, shame, and regret anymore so in a little over two hours I'm going to mix two separate glasses of SN and drink one of them if I vomit I will drink the other one. I have already fasted and I took the antiemetic, I will take another one in an hour. I'm really happy that I am part of this group it made me feel no so alone. Thank you for your support. I will stay on for two hours and then when I take the SN I will stay on because I don't want to ctb alone. It will soon be time to take the ride, hopefully, to peace.

 

[yive]

good luck! i hope you find what you are looking for

 

[Deleted member 23774]

good luck! i hope you find what you are looking for

Thank you.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

So sorry you feel the need to end your life this way. We're here for you, please think very carefully before you take the final steps. I don't know your story, but I hope you are absolutely certain this is your only way forward, before you take that poison.
Hugs

 

[Deleted member 23774]

So sorry you feel the need to end your life this way. We're here for you, please think very carefully before you take the final steps. I don't know your story, but I hope you are absolutely certain this is your only way forward, before you take that poison.
Hugs

I'm totally sure of my decision.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I'm totally sure of my decision.

In that case, I wish that you have a peaceful, painless and quick exit... and that you rest in peace

 

[Deleted member 23774]

In that case, I wish that you have a peaceful, painless and quick exit... and that you rest in peace

Thank you.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Where in the world are you @iamhopeless that it is 8.30pm? It is 4.30am here in UK.

 

[hendry]

I hope you find peace. Any final words?

 

[Deleted member 23774]

Where in the world are you @iamhopeless that it is 8.30pm? It is 4.30am here in UK.

I'm in the US

I hope you find peace. Any final words?

I'm not really sure what to say.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Any final words?

Why? What do you want to hear?
I'm sure @iamhopeless will say what they need to say without your encouragement.

I'm not really sure what to say.

There's no need to say anything.

 

[hendry]

Why? What do you want to hear?
I'm sure @iamhopeless will say what they need to say without your encouragement.

There's no need to say anything.

I'm sure of the same! I just encourage you to say Goodbye without regrets.

 

[Huntfish34]

I hope you find peace. . Take care.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I'm sure of the same! I just encourage you to say Goodbye without regrets.

Oh ffs, why? How will that make any difference to you or anyone else? It's just a word... I can't believe what I'm reading sometimes on this forum!

 

[Deleted member 23774]

If I change my mind am I am ass?

 

[Meretlein]

If I change my mind am I am ass?

No. We are here for you either way.

 

[NodusTollens]

Good luck & safe travels on your journey. & it's your party, you can change your mind if you want to.
—hugs—

 

[x~Sophia~x]

If I change my mind am I am ass?

If you change your mind, it's not your time yet. Welcome home @iamhopeless

 

[less than]

I'm sorry that your life had brought you to this point. I hope for you that your final journey will be smooth and painless and that you will find peace. Unfortunately I cannot be online at the time of your departure. But I will think of you.
Sending love and hugs.

 

[hendry]

If I change my mind am I am ass?

Do not worry. You can always change your mind. You have all my support

 

[Deleted member 23774]

No. We are here for you either way.

Cool

 

[x~Sophia~x]

@iamhopeless please eat something, then sleep. I'm so glad you're staying with us )

 

[less than]

If I change my mind am I am ass?

There's no shame if you change your mind. You are always welcome here.

 

[Deleted member 24006]

If I change my mind am I am ass?

Nope - better sure than sorry. This is a no-judgement zone.

 

[Deleted member 23586]

Oh my lil hope. My special hope. It's OK to change your mind hun. If you don't however. I'm gonna miss texting you and talking on the phone with you. I'm so sorry I wasn't able to see your text in time. I'm so so so so sorry for not being able to help you the way you needed. I just wanted to say how proud I am of you for being able to deal with so much. And thank you so much for telling me your story and trusting me with that. You know how I feel about you and that'll never ever ever change. You could never scare me away. You are a beautiful person who has done so much growth and you have an unbelievable strength about you. I'm gonna listen to your playlist and like I said to you before, till the very end I'll hold kn to the hope that weren't able to to carry. You feel hopeless but you'll always be my lil hope.

*super duper one of our favorite songs decode hugs*.
I'm sorry.

I'm trying to find more to say just incase you see this but there's not enough time incase you're still here. I'm so sorry.

 

[Deleted member 23774]

My counselor is calling crisis sorry for posting the thread

 

[Meretlein]

My counselor is calling crisis sorry for posting the thread

Nothing to apologize for.

 

[shadowchaser]

Aw I'm so glad to read that you've decided to stay and seem to be getting some help. There is absolutely zero shame in doing so; you shouldn't ever have to feel guilty for posting this thread.
Sorry you're feeling this way. I hope you are able to find reprieve soon.

 

[Nodscene]

I have to concur with what everyone else is saying. It's much better to not go through with it if you have any doubts no matter what you said you were going to do before. This is a life and death decision so it's not one to take lightly. It's also something that can be done at another time so there is no rush.

I'm not aware of your situation but I hope things work out for you in whatever form that takes.

Best of luck

 

[Spitfire]

Cool

Nope - better sure than sorry. This is a no-judgement zone.

My counselor is calling crisis sorry for posting the thread

Good luck @iamhopeless

I am glad you decided to take your time. I wish you well and I hope things can get better for you. You sound brave.

Thanks for posting and take it easy.