That NIN song... It means the world to me. I'm sorry to see you go, but regardless I hope you find peace.
I'm 18 as well and need to die or escape from my problems somehow. Sad you have chosen to take your own life, but I fully support you with your decisions.
Jumper Geo
Life's a bitch and then you die.
- Feb 23, 2020
- 2,910
Sorry your ctb is so soon and i read the other comments who said I hope you have explored all the options, your 18 and at school if I can't change your mind I will say and I mean RIP, I know how damaging mental health and depression are . If I was you though there's no rush to ctb so I would revert back to your original date of 5th April and forget school and try and get a job as you will meet new people and about 60% of people have met partners in the work place.
Best of luck
Geo
zherhk
Student
- Nov 25, 2019
- 126
Forgive me if writing what I think could upset you. We don't know if you did already seek 'professional' help recently or in the past, but if you can't help yourself, if you didn't tried that route, you must try it, you owe it to yourself, no question asked. Only when you tried everything possible you see the truth.
From what you let us know about you, and I don't mean to be disrespectful, many would place a trade. Things that are now hurting you aren't a verdict. You have power and control, and that means everything.
About friendship or relationship you need. Again, they don't come only once.
I truly feel from your words, their details, and this deep-sad contemplation as well that you wish somebody could help you, or that your inner self could hear you.
Love can help you say. Other people love feels great, and their attention too, but at your age the foundations of happiness must be made of self love.
From what you let us know about you, and I don't mean to be disrespectful, many would place a trade. Things that are now hurting you aren't a verdict. You have power and control, and that means everything.
About friendship or relationship you need. Again, they don't come only once.
I truly feel from your words, their details, and this deep-sad contemplation as well that you wish somebody could help you, or that your inner self could hear you.
Love can help you say. Other people love feels great, and their attention too, but at your age the foundations of happiness must be made of self love.
Jumper Geo
Life's a bitch and then you die.
- Feb 23, 2020
- 2,910
Unfortunately young person sometimes we are unable to escape our problems but you could wake up in the morning and say that's it, sod it, enough is enough move to a nicer area, get a better job, get a pet, talk to a doctor, talk to your family, search for answers why I feel this way, family history etc.
Create a bucket list and complete it, ticking it of as you go.
Best of luck
JG
I don't know. I don't know anymore. I don't fucking know anymore. Fucking fuck.
Jumper Geo
Life's a bitch and then you die.
- Feb 23, 2020
- 2,910
Yes I have day's like that I go for a walk in the cold and I feel better.
Jumper Geo
Life's a bitch and then you die.
- Feb 23, 2020
- 2,910
Lutembëe
Student
- Feb 19, 2020
- 140
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Hey hun..anything u wanna talk about?
Well my life is destroyed at only 18 fucking years old by some fucking rat fickle, I had a shit life, shit luck just complete stupid shit fucking life. I don't know how I could be so unlucky to be the one with this fucking life. I'm probably just going to kill myself fuck humanity
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
I literally destroyed it myself. I'm not going to tell you how I destroyed it, because you'll just write me off as some "sick weird fuck" and go on with your day. I'm just fucked and am only existing in this world now. I am not alive
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
HorribleFeelings1
Its a hard knock life
- Jan 18, 2020
- 321
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
HorribleFeelings1
Its a hard knock life
- Jan 18, 2020
- 321
Today is my day and every emotion is going through me right now. Like everything is hitting me and I'm going through a roller coaster of emotions
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
I know how it feels... And it is sad life has pushed you the edge. I guess I will be thinking much, are that only emotions or multiple thoughts scratching your mind?
Are you sure you want to do this? I fully support you if you are sure, but remember it's always ok to postpone it.
LMLN
Paragon
- Aug 10, 2019
- 929
That's understandable. You dont have to do this...you can take more time to think about it. We are here either way. ❤
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,820
I'm sorry that you are still suffering and hurting. If you aren't ready then it's ok, because the SI is a real bitch to deal with. Also, like others have said, we are here as a community to give support to you whether you decide to stay or leave. I hope you find peace and tranquility in whatever decision you make. 
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Hey Lil bro...u don't have to do this..we can discuss some other options..
Broken Chimera
The abyss also gazes into you
- May 27, 2019
- 972
I don't think you're ready yet. You don't have to make yourself do it. Take a step back and make sure that's what you want.
HorribleFeelings1
Its a hard knock life
- Jan 18, 2020
- 321
if I left a note saying to please respect my wishes and say my suicide was an accident to everyone else, will they do it? Or will the authorities say otherwise
LMLN
Paragon
- Aug 10, 2019
- 929
It will go on your death certificate if the coroner decides it was a suicide. It is a public record.:(
HorribleFeelings1
Its a hard knock life
- Jan 18, 2020
- 321
Ugh I just don't want my school or friends knowing it was suicide, I'm fine with family but not my friends
I'm doing SN, anywhere I can mask it to be an accident? Like I was drugged by someone I don't know
I'm doing SN, anywhere I can mask it to be an accident? Like I was drugged by someone I don't know
