My Final 72 Hours [Maybe]

[$yck]

Good Evening everyone,

On here I'm $yck, but you can call me Clifford
I am making this post to start the countdown of what may be my last 72 hours. I will update every once and a while until the attempt.

All I ever wanted was to be treated and spoken to like a normal human being, but apparently that was too much to ask lol.
So if you don't mind, ask me anything. Music, death, food, sports. Anything, [except my card info or shit like that lmao] or just talk to me. It'd mean a lot.

Thank You
Clifford

November 7th, 2025

04:00
Good Morning Everyone,

Thank you for all the kind messages and questions so far, I appreciate each and every one of them; Please keep asking. I'm at work right now, but I'll respond once I'm home. :]

 

[TheHolySword]

I hope you find your peace

 

[socksnsandles]

i wish you well on your journey

 

[At The Bus Stop]

Hey $yck/Clifford,

Lovely to meet you. On here, I go by At The Bus Stop, but you're welcome to call me Karl - a name associated with me but not my government name. Purely for anonymity and safety of myself if/when I choose to CTB.

I hope your next 72 hours are filled with things you love, if you decide that your time has come. I'd love to know what you enjoy doing, things that add a smile on your face even in times like now, where it's difficult to open ones eyes.

I'm a big fan of food, as most people are, but not necessarily the quantity aspect of it that people usually attribute to the idea of "liking food" - I enjoy cooking and learning how to make things, or even trying to perfect simple recipes. Adding random items that sound like they compliment a dish only to find out it's horrible but hey.. it's all a lesson. I once tried making homemade spaghetti, without a spaghetti cutter - it was like long gnocchi.. not the greatest but fun.

I've never really been into sports - but if I had to pick something I know the most about, it's probably football (soccer if you're that side of the water). Do you have a favourite team, do you play? I used to be stuck in defence, usually left/right back as I was a fast runner but didn't really have any technical ability .

I empathise with sometimes just wanting to feel like a human, and just being able to sit down and talk to someone without judgement. Having someone create a space for you to just listen and hold whatever emotion you have and be able to reciprocate those emotions through supportive conversations. I hope you're able to get that from either conversations on SaSu or making that unlikely friend.

Take care

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Hi Clifford, nice to meet you.

From your previous post, I noted that you have everything well planned. How are you feeling at the moment, and are you planning anything special in these last days?

I'm sorry you have not been treated well in this life. I wish you only the best, whatever may happen, and send a hug your way.

 

[woodlandcreature]

Hey Clifford :-)
You've been on my mind lately! I'm wondering who/ what your favorite music artists are? Do you have a favorite food? (ik ik starting out very strong haha!)
Do you/ have you ever played any instruments?
Have you ever been into any kind of visual art? If so, would you like to share examples you appreciate?
A previous commenter spoke about sports! I am quite interested in if you have any preferences as well. I've dabbled, but never been a huge sports fan like many where I'm from. Before my chronic illnesses took over I used to play soccer and tennis though! When I played tennis, I always preferred doubles to singles. Singles always felt so bleh lolz. The camaraderie aspect was nice I guess - though I've never been very social or talkative haha
I hope these next few days are filled with some favorites of yours <3 looking forward to hearing from you!

 

[Jan1193]

Hello, Clifford, and nice to meet you. I would like to give you a hug. What's your favorite comedy movie? Mine it's white chicks, hahaha.
And what kind of music do you like? I used to think that you can know a very lot about a person in base of their favorite music, movies, books and other fictions.

Aniway, I hope you find peace not only the time after you finally CBT, bit since now. It's really hard to fight agains the pure instinct of keep breathing.

 

[darksouls]

hi Clifford,
thank you for sharing your thoughts and being a member in this community,
what is your favorite animal? I love all animals but I am more like a dog and I lived together with my female dog for about 15 years,
I am sending you much love and a warm hug
sorry for my bad english, the google translation is shit

 

[madwoman]

Hi Clifford - sending love. Is there any food or drinks you especially want to consume in these next few days?

 

[DeadInsideUnicorn]

Hey Clifford, nice to meet you! What is your favorite music you want to listen these days?

 

[Irisse]

Hi Clifford!
I'm sorry that it has come to this, but also glad that your suffering will end.

Do you have any pets? Are you a cat person or a dog person? I personally prefer cats.

I also wonder if you like art (any form of creativity counts). I like drawing, knitting and crocheting the most.

Personally I'm really unfit for sports but I do like swimming. What is your favourite sport to play? Which ones do you like watching? Any clubs/teams you cheer for?

I think my favourite snack might be peanuts covered in dough which is seasoned with pepper. Is there a favourite meal you want to consume once more before the end?

I hope that you find peace and that it goes as peacefully and painlessly as possible.

 

[happy2die]

Hey Clifford! Any fun plans before you ctb?

 

[Alexandra_]

I hope you find what you're looking for, Clifford

 

[NutOrat]

Hey, Cliff. I think you're really brave, and I wish you don't have to suffer any more. If you do follow through, may these last hours be peaceful and devoid of sorrow. And if you don't, then may the rest of your life be that way from now on

Do you play video games? If so, which ones are your faves? Anyway, If you wanna chat about whatever, I'm here.

 

[$yck]

11:45

Back from Work :]

I hope you find your peace

Thank you, I hope you do as well. :]

i wish you well on your journey

Thank you, you too :]

 

[Flubber]

@$yck It's good to see you back, man - in the sense that you're still around

 

[Macedonian1987]

If these are you last 72 hours Clifford I wish you safe travels and may you be finally free from whatever tormented you and made you ctb.