why am i alive?

why am i alive?

Look where i ended
Oct 18, 2023
103
You said you loved me forever. Said im all to you. I believe your stack of lies. I wish you had Lied more. Hadn't told me the truth. Maybe we could still be one. I miss you. I love you more than myself.
Why did you have to do this to me? I know im not lovable. But why did you do this. Cheaters get Karma but I don't want you to. I want you to be happy.
You told me you would kill me if we broke up. Why am I alive? Why didn't you do it? Come here and finish the job. I am not strong enough to do it myself.
I can't even cry. I'm just numb without you. You took all of my emotions and my heart with you.
PLEASE COME BACK I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ITS UNBEARABLE
 
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Otaku

Otaku

Experienced
Mar 2, 2024
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How old are you?
This is not to belittle you, but age does matter when it comes to something like this.
Experience matter. And tbh, I don't think anyone should kill themselves over love.
It will get better.. But it's a process.

( Please don't hate me for saying this 😊)
 
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why am i alive?

why am i alive?

Look where i ended
Oct 18, 2023
103
How old are you?
This is not to belittle you, but age does matter when it comes to something like this.
Experience matter. And tbh, I don't think anyone should kill themselves over love.
It will get better.. But it's a process.

( Please don't hate me for saying this 😊)
I have had suicide thoughts before the break up (obviously) and the Post was made on the day of the break up so I don't have those thoughts anymore. I guess age matters. Im 19 and this is the first healthy relationship I have led so far.
 
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AnonymousL

AnonymousL

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Apr 5, 2023
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I have had suicide thoughts before the break up (obviously) and the Post was made on the day of the break up so I don't have those thoughts anymore. I guess age matters. Im 19 and this is the first healthy relationship I have led so far.
If she cheated its not a healthy relationship.

You deserve better, You deserve more than what she gave you.
I know you love her but there will be a day when you will realize what she did and how a person shouldn't treat you like that.


You want her to come back? So she can cheat over and over again? hurt you over and over again?
Why?

Why do you think so low of yourself that make you think you deserve this?
 
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SexyIncél

🍭my lollipop brings the feminists to my candyshop
Aug 16, 2022
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This is why so many of us have burnt away the part of our emotions that expected too much out of relationships. You occasionally meet another talking animal who wants to run with you. Maybe you run together a long time... but usually not

One weird part of modern life is the nuclear family, and the artificial notion of "romantic relationship". We're too few people, as Orion Taraban mentions. How can we each fulfill another person so completely? We're usually not supposed to spend so much time alone together, and instead have a community. The few lottery winners (two compatibly virtuous people) give others too much hope
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
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I feel for you.... yeah, why did she/he treat you this way? Cheating is so ugly, so painful. But you re worth more than how you got treated.
What I write sounds weird in my own ears cause I m currently going through a similar process. My ex dumped me 3 months ago and replaced me with another woman. It feels like I cant live without him. Just like you.

You are not alone 🫂. Just write about your thoughts and feelings here as much as you want and need. We re here to support you.
 
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ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
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Breakups hurt a lot, I'm really sorry she cheated on you, that's very low and you deserve better.
I'm glad to hear you're not feeling the things with the same intensity as when you wrote the post. 19 is very young and you'll see that love comes and goes, hurts like hell but the pain subsides with time.

I wish a nice and steady recover for your heart
 
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