Discussion My eldest son just said that I'm his favourite, why isn't that enough for me to want to live?

[BlackSpotOnTheSun]

He's only 7. I feel happy about him saying it, especially as the relationship with my wife is rock bottom and has been for years, but it's still not enough for me.
I still feel like everyone would be better off without me.

Some people would be sad, temporarily, but I know life would move on and I'd be forgotten about quickly enough.

When my children are grown up, I'd hope they understand why I did what I did.

 

[Aisley]

Our kids shouldn't have to understand our bullshit. They should just be kids. They got this tiny window where life can be good, before everything goes to shit. You should do nothing until then. I'm sorry, I see the hell you're in, but someone's gotta say it, and I might be the only one left here who would. A few more years is a drop in the bucket to what you've already gone through.

 

[h4yate]

what youre feeling is completely understandable. sometimes a few words isnt enough to make you feel whole again. im wishing you the best.

 

[sayire]

He's only 7. I feel happy about him saying it, especially as the relationship with my wife is rock bottom and has been for years, but it's still not enough for me.
I still feel like everyone would be better off without me.

Some people would be sad, temporarily, but I know life would move on and I'd be forgotten about quickly enough.

When my children are grown up, I'd hope they understand why I did what I did.

I am not sure what to say
sounds like the family will be provided for even if you ctb
best to be around till kids become adults and are out of the nest. but thats like many years out. not sure if resentment and other things creep up and might actually hurt more during teen years for the kids.
not sure why you say you will be forgotten quickly enough, r u really certain ?
maybe you can be there for your kids after separating with wife?

I wish you the best and I hope you find a path to better your situation

 

[Jolene79]

When people say they'd be better off without me, they sound severely depressed. It's untrue also for the most part. They won't be better off without you and will be devastated.
I'm a parent. I have an horrific degenerative type condition rendering me virtually bedbound and severely impacting my cognition. I hate this and am terrified and want out. I know this will be horrendous on my child.
Is there any possibility of seeking help or is it way beyond that. I know antidepressants are not a fix all. I can't tolerate them. Have you gone through all this.
I know you don't want to hear it. Maybe tell us how this all happened. You can vent here and be honest about it which is something.

 

[shootemallagain]

Das teken da ge een vrouw zijt die weer mensse levens geeft terwel de mensse er ni om vragen
die kleine zal zen 20ste nog ni halen als ik deze uitspraken hoor