Venting My doorbell rang and now my soul hurts

[EyesOfNight]

My doorbell rang multiple times and I didn't answer. The thought that it could have been my mother trying to re-establish contact came into my mind.

Now I just feel this chaotic sadness in my heart because of the people I have abandoned. I'm not sure if every single one of them deserved to be abandoned or if ghosting them was even beneficial to me at all.

I wish I could snuff out the rest of my ability to feel emotions, or just emotions that have to do with other people.

 

[yrrusdf]

Yeah I know what you mean, I do the same thing with people even though it makes me feel bad