Venting My death will mean nothing and it’s makin me feel really down

[Aphid]

ive had like 20 people message me worried about me wanting me to live and be safe and im just realizing a big part of this, im not gong to have a meaning when i die, my death will be senseless. I dont want to die but im going to. I keep getting told time over time again that what im feeling is stupid that i need to move on i need to move away from this shame that i can't let it kill me that i can't let it do this to me but im letting it. And it will and i feel such shit for it . I am thankful for everyone who's dont e this, reaching out and caring for me, thank you, i really don't deserve your kindness. It's such a horrible thing. I want to be good, i want to be a good bunny, i want to i want to live but i know there's no use. there's no use.

 

[enjoytheride]

I am sorry you are going through such painful times. Allow me to disagree with some of your points. You do deserve kindness people have extended to you. Regarding the use of living, it is most probably out there, waiting to be discovered. Unfortunately, for some of us it takes longer and it is harder to find, but it doesn't mean it isn't there.

If you need to talk to someone, get something specific off your chest or just say "Hi!", feel free to message me, dear.