Venting My daughter tried to stab me...

[dontwakemeup]

I definitely don't care about dying so I never ran. The police put her in jail and her trial is coming up. I just hate her for destroying my life! I don't want to mess up her record but feels she needs to pay for all the hell she has put me through. It's making me have those thoughts again, but all I have are pills and insulin. I don't know what to do. I just wish to never see her again and tell her how she has made my life a pure hell. I just don't want to wake up from this hell anymore, I'm so tired of crying.

 

[PI3.14]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. What's going on with your daughter? Is she suffering from mental disorders? Doing drugs?

 

[Firefly.Forest]

I am so sorry, I can not even imagine the pain and suffering you must be going thru in this situation.

 

[onlythetwoofus]

That's such a heartbreaking situation, I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's understandable that her trial coming up is affecting you more than usual.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. What's going on with your daughter? Is she suffering from mental disorders? Doing drugs?

Bipolar disorder. But that isn't an excuse.

 

[-AntiSocial-]

I'm no mental health specialist but why is your daughter willing to stab her parent and risk inviting legal troubles? Is there something going on at home that shouldn't be?

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm no mental health specialist but why is your daughter willing to stab her parent and risk inviting legal troubles? Is there something going on at home that shouldn't be?

I have no idea. She has hit me in the past and I dropped the chargers. This time I will not. I will go to court and give my testimony and walk away forever! I can't continue to forgive her and excuse her behavior! I will never understand why she did this.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I think the daughter must had some good reasons to attack one of her parents tbh. This doesn't happen just because fun. I always think about attacking my parents because they are both cruel and very disgusting people. Because of them I am poor, disabled, lonely, seen as ugly and made fun of and also seen as mentally ill by normal people who stigmatized me. I have nobody who cares for me. They should never have any children and they need to give me money. The only reason I suffer is because they procreated without thinking about the possible bad life that I endure. And my father doesn't care, he abandoned the family and created with a slighlty better looking woman than my mother, another disabled worthless son. He never supported me with money. I despise my parents and breeders from the bottom of my heart. Other parents aren't good either they are always narc and psychopaths. I had a social worker (pickme) who sabotaged my whole care assistance service so I lost the help, and I still suffer without any help. The only help I had is perplexity.ai to write complains against organisations, and decitions and against the psychiatric diagnoses the normal people put me in. Nobody of them helped me, I was abused in german asylum too and the people who allow OEG (Opferentschädigung) don't want to give me compensation for the abuse I endured in this life.

I'm so sorry all those things have happened to you. Everyone here has a story also, trauma, abuse, neglect you name it. I also have a story too. I can tell my whole story and then will that justify what my child done to me? Violence is never ok and justified! If you hate those people that made your life miserable then I completely understand, and I despise several people too BUT, you have to find the power to keep going. Let's say I am the worse mother in the world, does that justify her actions then? Absolutely not! For the record, she has hit me a few times and I always drop the charges. I will not drop these charges and I will be at every court date!

When you read these threads it's easy to envision yourself in these shoes and have empathy and understanding, but this is my story not yours. I'm not saying that to be disrespectful towards you. I created this post because I was upset as I am the victim here!!! I was upset and emotional the dayI posted this thread. I'm thankful for the comments. Currently, I am doing much better. I made a few calls regarding this case because she has violated her court order since this happened. Remember; I am the victim here!

Like I said, we all have a story here. So many people has wronged me and they walk free with no reprimand. The system is so unfair. When will we get justice? We probably will never get the justice we deserve and have to live with those issues forever. We can't decide to harm people and justify it. We only have the power to walk away and try counseling to help us with these situations. If you read about the act of stabbing someone, it's a very intimate and disgusting crime! There will never be a justified reason for any child to try to stab their mother! I look forward to her going to jail or whatever the courts decide. This was the last straw for me!

 

[SilentSadness]

I'm sorry to say, but I don't think I empathise with you. I know you put a venting tag, but if you are accusing your daughter specifically then I don't think it is just venting anymore so I will give my opinion. I think that it sounds like you don't actually love your child, if you are saying "they should pay for the hell they put me through", and that you "can't forgive them". You say that you never wish to see your child again, but you are the one who created them, so you should take responsibility. My only advice is to take your share of the responsibility for what has happened.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm sorry to say, but I don't think I empathise with you. I know you put a venting tag, but if you are accusing your daughter specifically then I don't think it is just venting anymore so I will give my opinion. I think that it sounds like you don't actually love your child, if you are saying "they should pay for the hell they put me through", and that you "can't forgive them". You say that you never wish to see your child again, but you are the one who created them, so you should take responsibility. My only advice is to take your share of the responsibility for what has happened.

You don't need to apologize to me at all. You have the right to your opinion and this is a free platform. Express yourself however you please, and write whatever you feel! You are absolutely correct, I actually despise all of them! I have wrote a few post stating I hate being a mother, so that was obvious. I always felt obligated to forgive them no matter what they have done to me because I am their mother! I no longer feel obligated and because of this incident, I can walk away with no shame or remorse. I wish I could share the whole story with you guys but the internet is not such a private place. My kids have made my life a living hell! I will be happy when this case is over and I no longer have to see any of them again. If people don't understand that, it's ok. I know the truth. I will forgive her in time, but that doesn't mean I will ever meet with her again.

 

[Lady_V]

If a parent/child relationship is fractured, it isn't the fault of the offspring. Parents who blame their own children they chose to bring into this world for "ruining their life" are usually shit ass parents.