Venting my ctb plan- partial hanging

[sadpigeon]

i plan on ctb this tuesday via partial hanging. i have an amazon package that will arrive, but if it arrives too late i will have to bump it a day or so. the package has some normal stuff, jewelry that i want to wear when i die, fondant because i love fondant and want to have it one last time before i go, and then a rope.
everyone in my family but me has a job, and they all work at the same place with the same shift, and they very rarely come home early (and if they do, it's still very late in the day). i plan on binge eating the previous day on everything that i want to eat. the fondant, chocolate, peaches, popcorn, shrimp. i'll also probably watch a lot of movies and do some… private acts.
i'll also write my note that day and begin to reach out to people i know to say goodbye. i'll then probably clear my phone of anything embarrassing
the next day i'll fast and drink minimal water and get everything together. i'll spend a lot of time with my cat and give her some food and treats before i go. she knows im suffering, but i know that this would be a big shock to her and she would be very depressed, even more so since we just lost her brother to cancer.
i know it's all so soon, but im just so tired. i hope it all goes well, and i also hope that it's not a huge financial burden on my family.

 

[Martymcflyismydog]

Best wishes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of suffering, I hope you find peace.