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Karl Heisenberg
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- May 28, 2024
- 21
It's been two years since we've known each other and because I was, like now, highly suicidal with four attempts (each one with different method). At that moment I have started to realise, that I just can't die. It was a terrible feeling. I had no method avaible to me nor money to buy a black powder pistol or anything like that. I started going crazy, which apparently manifested itself in me starting to joke about my suicidal attempts and desires in front of others and the worst thing that could happen to me was that nobody cared, they just didn't know what to say to that (which i understand, they were just teens).
Anyway, one of our teachers passed away last week. I knew him, he was a nice teacher, I even created one project just for him (and also for my purposes) dealing with a homemade RC jet engine but sadly, I couldn't finish it in time. My classmates were talking about this accident in our instagram group. I went there and said: "this is so sad, I wish I had the empathy to sympathize with you" (I am an autist and one of my diseases is that I have not much empathy, also I can't understand irony or sarcasm etc.), to which one of my classmates replied: "good, now shut the fuck up". To that I replied: "What's wrong?! I'm literally writing here that I just can't feel empathy, but I'm sorry for him. Then when I write "I'm going to kill myself" write me "don't do it" dude" (BTW they know that I am an autist), which he replied to that: "Sorry, but I have no empathy". Then I replied: "bitch i'm going to kill myself because spending some time here with you is just suffering". Then one other classmate replied: "Why do you keep saying that? We know it all, so it's getting annoying that you keep saying it over and over, you know?".
Is this considered as bullying or is it normal reaction to someone who want to kill himself? Did I do something wrong? I don't know. Please, tell me your opinion to this and I very much appreciate that you read all this to this point.
If I did any grammar mistakes, I am sorry. English is not my main language to speak with.
Anyway, one of our teachers passed away last week. I knew him, he was a nice teacher, I even created one project just for him (and also for my purposes) dealing with a homemade RC jet engine but sadly, I couldn't finish it in time. My classmates were talking about this accident in our instagram group. I went there and said: "this is so sad, I wish I had the empathy to sympathize with you" (I am an autist and one of my diseases is that I have not much empathy, also I can't understand irony or sarcasm etc.), to which one of my classmates replied: "good, now shut the fuck up". To that I replied: "What's wrong?! I'm literally writing here that I just can't feel empathy, but I'm sorry for him. Then when I write "I'm going to kill myself" write me "don't do it" dude" (BTW they know that I am an autist), which he replied to that: "Sorry, but I have no empathy". Then I replied: "bitch i'm going to kill myself because spending some time here with you is just suffering". Then one other classmate replied: "Why do you keep saying that? We know it all, so it's getting annoying that you keep saying it over and over, you know?".
Is this considered as bullying or is it normal reaction to someone who want to kill himself? Did I do something wrong? I don't know. Please, tell me your opinion to this and I very much appreciate that you read all this to this point.
If I did any grammar mistakes, I am sorry. English is not my main language to speak with.