Venting My childhood hometown got bombed

[textmewhenyourehome]

My childhood next door neighbour texted me last week. The two streets adjacent to ours were flattened. Everyone I grew up with including her is desperately scrambling to evacuate wherever they can amidst fuel shortages and cancelled flights and demolished airports.

Ever since then I've been living a nightmare. I text my family members and watch it sit there with just one tick because there's an internet outage. Then I go to work and everyone is laughing and joking around like nothing is wrong, and it just makes me wanna die more. I go online to speak up about my family and my feelings and I'm replied to as if I've initiated a debate. I find videos online of people celebrating what happened to my little corner where all me and the kids around me cared about was finishing our homework, getting a snack from the grocery store and visiting a park to play around after school. I can't even bring things like that up without being treated like I'm purposefully guilt tripping someone. I'm not allowed to care without it being a back and forth about who was more right to kill civilians.

I feel beaten down, and everything I've ever done to overcome my traumas of growing up in the Middle East seems to reset every 2 years when something else goes wrong.

I've made too much progress on my recovery to let this set me back as far as I was. But I'd be lying if I didn't float around my errands like a zombie, doing the bare minimum to survive.

I don't know what I want. I just wanted to say that. Because everywhere else I feel like I'm not allowed to feel like this, and I'm hoping it will be different here.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

When will the world finally wake up and notice who the real aggressors are in the region!!!

 

[textmewhenyourehome]

I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

When will the world finally wake up and notice who the real aggressors are in the region!!!

At this point it seems like it may never happen :(

 

[Praestat_Mori]

At this point it seems like it may never happen :(

Not in the foreseeable future.

 

[darksouls]

sad world
humanity will never improve

 

[Apathy79]

Not sure it matters who the aggressor is. Noone will find consensus on it. Guaranteed people on the other side have the same story. Just a sad situation. Made harder by not knowing what's happened to loved ones due to lack of connectivity. I can't even imagine how that feels.

Hope you can take the time to try to process it and get through to them. Fingers crossed nothing tragic has happened. Feel free to vent here.

 

[textmewhenyourehome]

sad world
humanity will never improve

I stupidly want to keep hoping it does someday, but I don't think it will in my lifetime

Not sure it matters who the aggressor is. Noone will find consensus on it. Guaranteed people on the other side have the same story. Just a sad situation. Made harder by not knowing what's happened to loved ones due to lack of connectivity. I can't even imagine how that feels.

Hope you can take the time to try to process it and get through to them. Fingers crossed nothing tragic has happened. Feel free to vent here.

Yeah, I mean half the time I'm not even talking about aggressors and I'm harassed about why what happened is justified, followed by a barrage of arguments among the people who reply to me about who is the aggressor.

Not knowing what's going on when every hour the story continues to develop, it's a feeling I wouldn't wish on anybody. Thank you for your sympathy

 

[zixd]

My childhood next door neighbour texted me last week. The two streets adjacent to ours were flattened. Everyone I grew up with including her is desperately scrambling to evacuate wherever they can amidst fuel shortages and cancelled flights and demolished airports.

Ever since then I've been living a nightmare. I text my family members and watch it sit there with just one tick because there's an internet outage. Then I go to work and everyone is laughing and joking around like nothing is wrong, and it just makes me wanna die more. I go online to speak up about my family and my feelings and I'm replied to as if I've initiated a debate. I find videos online of people celebrating what happened to my little corner where all me and the kids around me cared about was finishing our homework, getting a snack from the grocery store and visiting a park to play around after school. I can't even bring things like that up without being treated like I'm purposefully guilt tripping someone. I'm not allowed to care without it being a back and forth about who was more right to kill civilians.

I feel beaten down, and everything I've ever done to overcome my traumas of growing up in the Middle East seems to reset every 2 years when something else goes wrong.

I've made too much progress on my recovery to let this set me back as far as I was. But I'd be lying if I didn't float around my errands like a zombie, doing the bare minimum to survive.

I don't know what I want. I just wanted to say that. Because everywhere else I feel like I'm not allowed to feel like this, and I'm hoping it will be different here.

i dont have words to say in my current state of mind , but all i can say is that im ashamed that i can be no help :/ , life is horrible , in fact thats why i wanna way out of this existence , with all my love <3

 

[Forever Sleep]

The actual human cost of war is horrific- no matter who is fighting who. I'm so sorry you are going through this. Human nature in this regard just sickens me. I wish we could learn to resolve our differences without murdering one another.

I kind of wish it was how it was at least- where those calling the shots were at the frontline in a battle and they didn't involve civilians. I wonder how keen they would be on fighting if they were the ones likely to die. Rather than hoping to profit in some way. I don't understand a lot of conflicts to be fair. A lot of the time, it seems retaliations built up and up. Who can even 'win' in such a situation? It just seems never ending.

I wish I knew what to say other than I feel so bad for you. I hope your family and loved ones remain safe.

 

[bankai]

sad world
humanity will never improve

Unfortunately no.It's human nature. And that will never change. Conflict is part of who we are and War will always be there.

 

[EmptyBottle]

That unfortunate conflict seems to be going on for ages, both sides harming innocents, I wish you and your family peace.

If only the pain can be taken away from innocents and sent straight back to the exact individuals who cause harm to innocent people. At the minimum, there will be so many recoveries on SaSu.

A single week of a SaSu style longterm nightmare would likely be enough to force the individuals who cause harm to change their ways, maybe even after they wake up from their nightmare.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Can't imagine what you must be going through, sending love.

 

[textmewhenyourehome]

i dont have words to say in my current state of mind , but all i can say is that im ashamed that i can be no help :/ , life is horrible , in fact thats why i wanna way out of this existence , with all my love <3

I understand, your comment still means a lot to me the world would be a lot better with people like you in it but it's a massive burden that shouldn't be forced on you. Thank you for your kind words, and sending lots of love back

That unfortunate conflict seems to be going on for ages, both sides harming innocents, I wish you and your family peace.

If only the pain can be taken away from innocents and sent straight back to the exact individuals who cause harm to innocent people. At the minimum, there will be so many recoveries on SaSu.

a single week of a SaSu style longterm nightmare would likely be enough to force the individuals who cause harm to change their ways, maybe even after they wake up from their nightm

The actual human cost of war is horrific- no matter who is fighting who. I'm so sorry you are going through this. Human nature in this regard just sickens me. I wish we could learn to resolve our differences without murdering one another.

I kind of wish it was how it was at least- where those calling the shots were at the frontline in a battle and they didn't involve civilians. I wonder how keen they would be on fighting if they were the ones likely to die. Rather than hoping to profit in some way. I don't understand a lot of conflicts to be fair. A lot of the time, it seems retaliations built up and up. Who can even 'win' in such a situation? It just seems never ending.

I wish I knew what to say other than I feel so bad for you. I hope your family and loved ones remain safe.

I wish, the fact that the ones calling the shots sit safely in their homes while the least involved people suffer the most is sickening. Thank you so much for your empathy. I hope one day we FINALLY learn to be past wars