My cat might be put down tomorrow

[Neowise]

There is a high chance that my cat will be put down tomorrow or during the next days due to chronic kidney failure. He has been accompanying me throughout 13.5 years during the entire high school and university time. I basically grew up with him. He was always there following me everywhere around the house, waiting next to the shower for me to finish and greeting me at my car whenever I came home and he was outside. There is no one I love more and there is no one he loves more. I was always scared of the shock of suddenly finding his corpse one day, but I never thought that I would have to watch him suffer for a week to have him euthanized at the end.

This is breaking my heart.

He was the closest person to me, my best friend. The fact that he will be gone kinda makes me feel like CTBing even more. But I know that commiting suicide over the loss of a cat is exaggerated so of course I won't do that. It's just sad because even though I still live with my parents I will be alone now. He didn't love me for my good marks but for who I am. He gave me the feeling of being wanted. And I loved him more than anything else.

Man, I've been dreading this day for years. Now here it comes.

 

[sadworld]

I'm so sorry This story made me tear up a bit

I never had a pet but I'm sure it's a really hard loss I'm sure your cat is happy that they had you in their life!

Sending hugs!!

 

[Miss_Takes]

I am truly sorry for both you and your dear friend. Animals are such a comfort. My thoughts are with you.

 

[fly away]

I am so, so sorry about your cat. They give such comfort and unconditional love and are always there when you need them. I really feel you....I lost both of my black and white cats this year, one 16 yrs and the other 18 1/2 yrs.. I still can't get through the day without missing my angels. I just try to remember that at least I was able to stop any suffering they might have been feeling. I wish I could do that for myself. I'll be thinking of you and your kitty and please know that the people on this site really care. Please reach out if you need to talk

 

[botanormal]

Losing a furry friend is always such a difficult process, I am so sorry for your loss. Sometimes our pets will care for us, and give us love, when nobody else will. They're there for us during our darkest hours, and will love us unconditionally. No matter what kind of successes or failures we're going through, they love us all the same. It's such a hard thing to see them go, but I'm sure he really appreciated everything you did for him during his life. It's a lot to process, so try to take things at your own pace, okay? If you ever need to talk, we're all here for you. I'm sending you big hugs right now!

 

[Nimbus]

I'm so very sorry to hear this. My heart is breaking for you. I have had cats my entire life. Years ago, I lost one after he turned 18 yrs old. It was devastating to me but even more so to my younger sister who was born when our cat was 3 yrs old so had known him her entire life. They were best friends- the way you describe your relationship with your cat. It's so hard to lose the unconditional love of a pet. I am sure that he'll go more peacefully with you beside him. Maybe try to focus on giving him the love and support he needs now, in return for all the love and support he's given you over the years. I know it will be a really hard time, but try to hang on for your furry loved one. Sending healing vibes your way.

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I'm so sorry that you're losing your friend. I used to worry about this with my cat too. It's not easy to process. But what I will say is that cats are wise and that the reason that you two bonded the way you did speaks to this intangible connection that you had. You were each other's other. And you each brought joy to one another. They knew they were loved and that's what matters.

 

[whywere]

It truly breaks my heart to hear about your best friend. I had a cat growing up that died and I am 64 years young and I still think about the white ball of fur that loved me so much. I 100% truly have my entire fiber of being going out to you right now and I pray and hope that you can find peace in the fact that you had a long loving time with your friend. I , along with every global family member stand with you right now in your time of need and I send you all my love, caring, empathy, kindness and support that I have to you. Please keep us in your mind and heart and let us help you through this difficult time. ALL MY LOVE TO YOU!!!!! Walter

 

[Brink]

That's awful. I couldn't imagine losing a cat right now. He was your emotional support animal? I am so sorry. xx

 

[Deleted member 1465]

There is a high chance that my cat will be put down tomorrow or during the next days due to chronic kidney failure. He has been accompanying me throughout 13.5 years during the entire high school and university time. I basically grew up with him. He was always there following me everywhere around the house, waiting next to the shower for me to finish and greeting me at my car whenever I came home and he was outside. There is no one I love more and there is no one he loves more. I was always scared of the shock of suddenly finding his corpse one day, but I never thought that I would have to watch him suffer for a week to have him euthanized at the end.

This is breaking my heart.

He was the closest person to me, my best friend. The fact that he will be gone kinda makes me feel like CTBing even more. But I know that commiting suicide over the loss of a cat is exaggerated so of course I won't do that. It's just sad because even though I still live with my parents I will be alone now. He didn't love me for my good marks but for who I am. He gave me the feeling of being wanted. And I loved him more than anything else.

Man, I've been dreading this day for years. Now here it comes.

I'm so sorry @Neowise it's awful to lose someone you care for so much. A beloved pet gives us something many humans fail to: unconditional love. When I was a kid my dog was my best friend and I still miss him and imagine him with me in the woods.
There is no shame in feeling as you do. If he is to be put down, then he has indeed had his time, as everyone does. At least he will get a peaceful exit and you will have the opportunity to be there with him. That is a peculiar honour, I know, but it is the last thing you can do for him.
And you will feel awful and you will grieve, as you should.

 

[DeathBySuicide]

I'm so sorry you're losing your cat. I, myself, have had many pets, and I know what it's like to lose them. I really hope you'll get through this painful period of time with as little suffering as possible

 

[Leiden]

Im so, very sorry @Neowise. I know how hard it is to lose a pet. They aren't just pets, they are everything. Sending you a big hug and my thoughts are with you

 

[Ghost2211]

I am so sorry you're facing such a loss. It's good to hear your kitty had a nice long life with you, and was loved and cared for. My heart goes out to you I wish I could give you so many hugs.

 

[greebo6]

I'm so sorry. I know its very painful.
At least you know you always gave your cat all the love and care you possibly could. And those happy memories you have can never be taken away.
Again ,I'm sorry .
Sending some hugs >>

 

[foxdie]

This is truly heartbreaking, I'm so sorry this is happening. I had to put my cat down in 2015 because he had cancer and other issues. The only consolation I had was he lived 17 years and lived as good a life as I could've given him. It's so hard but I'm sure you did the same and he can rest peacefully having had a fulfilling and loving life. Sending hugs in this difficult time

 

[Catzini1951]

I am so sorry that you'll be losing your kitty. He is so lucky to have you to help him thru.

 

[Marktheghost]

Lucky cat! I wish someone would kill me.
It's sad that you're going to lose him though.

 

[Tintypographer]

I'm so truly sorry about your loving cat. We have three cats all with their own quirks and personalities. I know that my family and I would be devastated if we lost one. Thoughts and prayers go out to you neowise.

 

[Donk]

I'm so sorry about your cat. I'm dejected at the idea that one day I will have to put my dog down. Pets are better company than humans tbh

 

[MindFrog]

Man, i'm scared for my cats too, i dont want to see them die. It's probably harder for you since your cat's gonna be put down. I just hope his passing will be peaceful at least. He deserves it. I dont usually pray, but i'll do it for today. If angels are real, I'll ask them to guide your cat to heaven. Sending hugs from a cat owner to another.

 

[Spitfire]

We had a cat named Pumpkin and he died a little more than a month ago. It was a significant loss for our family when he passed. It is still fresh in my mind.

I am sorry to hear your cat is not doing well.

 

[sarahlouise]

Sorry to hear about your cat x

 

[Neowise]

Thank you everyone for your kind words, it really is helping me get through this a bit better.

Update: he was indeed put down today. But I'm more relieved than sad because it's finally over now. Seeing him lay infront of the stove barely moving and not eating every day for a week was emotionally too exhausting, I don't know if I would have made it through another 2 or 3 days. I'm crying now because I looked at the spot he has been lying during the past week again and he is not there, only some of his hairs. Every part of this house awakens memories. I managed to get a good recording of his purring yesterday evening, today morning he felt worse and didn't purr anymore. And I will keep some hair as memory.

This is hard, but I know that it will only get better from now on because I can start to get over it now that he is gone.
You don't necessarily have to comment this, I just wanted to finish the story after I began it yesterday.

(He was the one on the left)
Rest in peace my dear Rudi, you will always have a special place in my heart and I will never forget you. I am grateful for every single moment we spent together. You were my sunshine and my love. You were my everything.

 

[Brink]

RIP Rudi xx

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Bless ya @Neowise and thank you for the update. Rudi's time is done and it's your time to grieve accordingly.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I'm so sorry about your sweet Rudi. I know he must have been so special to you. Losing a kitty is so agonising especially if you've grown up alongside them, the grief can be unbearable because they are so loved. Hopefully he has crossed the rainbow bridge by now and is having a peaceful catnap as we speak. RIP Rudi <3

 

[Leiden]

R.I.P Rudi

@Neowise How lucky Rudi was to have such a loving friend like you and you him. So happy you got to make so many special memories with him. I'm sorry for you loss but so glad you both had each other for the time that you did.

 

[Catzini1951]

I sure am sorry. You did what had to be done. You're a good kitty caregiver.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Yeah, he was lucky to have such a good friend. I think you did right by him and that is worth a lot.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I am so sorry about Rudi. He was beautiful. You were blessed to have had each other in this life and to have experienced the love and bond that you shared. Hugs to you