Hi guys. I do not share the same tendencies toward suicide but being involved in someone I loved very much committing suicide does give me a perspective on not only what works but also how it effects those close to you. If you choose to go through with it, maybe considering that there may be some people that love you and minimizing your impact on them would help.
You have to do what's right for you.
I also have some questions about what was going through my brother's head before he decided to ctb. Maybe you can offer me some insight.
Before I start to leave an explanation, I really want to thank you all of members that haven wrote here. Most of your words really touched me, and even when I cried, it felt different in any way. You're so human and gentle, and I can't explain why people like you must have so many suffering. Is unffair.
I send you a very kind hugh, and I'm really sorry for your loss. As a sister with desires of CBT, I don't know how to said my feels without the fear of cause more pain, for my older brother, my people, and maybe you. My mother past away the last year in november, we lived together in our grand-parents house (they rest in peace). I'm alone since she was gone, and every day, every week and every month feels like an agony. Some of my family told me that I would be with them, but in the deepest, I know they have their lifes. I don't feel like a person anymore, I have become a problem, not a remain of my mother as her daughter. I don't believe that I fit in a place with them or with my friends. As a human, I feel the degradation and I know well how will it ends. I prefer not to being here meanwhile I still have a heart, and not just an apatic, miserable and irritating phantom of myself.
In the beggining, I didn't throught of leaving letters for them, exactly for the weakness and nihilism that one has described. NEVER is a personal cause, an intention to hurt or inspiring by resentfull, specially when we love so much at our people, is just because we cannot think in many things between the personal hell or we considerate «is not so important, they will forgot so fast, or maybe don't understand aniways». I have the feeling that I don't saying nothing really important -Im sorry
But i really believe this: your brother loved you so much, and he IS gratefull with all your kind words, your actions, your help and your constantly love for him. The soul never forget who was there even when we don't want to be with ourselves. Even the most tiny moment, he take that with him, and is with you too. I send you my best wishes, and soon you can find realm and relief. Take your time, we are here to read you and support you, as you supported your brother.
Hi guys. I do not share the same tendencies toward suicide but being involved in someone I loved very much committing suicide does give me a perspective on not only what works but also how it effects those close to you. If you choose to go through with it, maybe considering that there may be some people that love you and minimizing your impact on them would help.
You have to do what's right for you.
I also have some questions about what was going through my brother's head before he decided to ctb. Maybe you can offer me some insight.
Before I start to leave an explanation, I really want to thank you all of members that haven wrote here. Most of your words really touched me, and even when I cried, it felt different in any way. You're so human and gentle, and I can't explain why people like you must have so many suffering. Is unffair.
I send you a very kind hugh, and I'm really sorry for your loss. As a sister with desires of CBT, I don't know how to said my feels without the fear of cause more pain, for my older brother, my people, and maybe you. My mother past away the last year in november, we lived together in our grand-parents house (they rest in peace). I'm alone since she was gone, and every day, every week and every month feels like an agony. Some of my family told me that I would be with them, but in the deepest, I know they have their lifes. I don't feel like a person anymore, I have become a problem, not a remain of my mother as her daughter. I don't believe that I fit in a place with them or with my friends. As a human, I feel the degradation and I know well how will it ends. I prefer not to being here meanwhile I still have a heart, and not just an apatic, miserable and irritating phantom of myself.
In the beggining, I didn't throught of leaving letters for them, exactly for the weakness and nihilism that one has described. NEVER is a personal cause, an intention to hurt or inspiring by resentfull, specially when we love so much at our people, is just because we cannot think in many things between the personal hell or we considerate «is not so important, they will forgot so fast, or maybe don't understand aniways». I have the feeling that I don't saying nothing really important -Im sorry
But i really believe this: your brother loved you so much, and he IS gratefull with all your kind words, your actions, your help and your constantly love for him. The soul never forget who was there even when we don't want to be with ourselves. Even the most tiny moment, he take that with him, and is with you too. I send you my best wishes, and soon you can find peace of mind and relief. Take your time, we are here to read you and support you, as you supported your brother