I personally do not think it is anybody's responsibility or business to try and keep another alive.
Life is not easy on anybody, it takes a lot of mental effort to get through each day, every day.
I am usually so overwhelmed, dealing with my own shit that being confronted with another person's problems (especislly someone close to me) absolutely exhausts me.
Just because they are not trying to stop you anymore doesn't automatically mean they want you to go ahead with it now. They might just be tired of trying. Just like dealing with suicidal ideation is far from the easiest thing, I cannot imagine what being with someone actively & openly suicidal be like.
Being suicidal is the extremist one can be no
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not, I'm gonna get addicted to drugs, or be promiscuos or some other societally unacceptable thing, oh no. Life & death baby. Either I am, or I ain't.
Thinking from the perspective of your bf, who might be having to grapple with imagining a reality where his loved one might not just be dead, but actually have planned to kill themselves...... I cannot begin to describe how fucked up that is. No one is equipped to deal with that kinda shit man.
Especially someone who might not be actively suicidal, or dealt with that kinda stuff longterm & still be trying to cling onto all the good in life, to continue.
I hope I don't come off as mean or inconsiderate & I honestly do not know much about your situation, I've just always had this bad habit of being the devil's advocate, I hope I'm not taking the side of someone who's just an uncaring asshole