Venting My birthday just passed

[Gstreater]

I hate my birthday, it just reminds me that I don't really have anything I want to do, and I don't have anything to live for. My birthday just reminds me that I want to die so I just try to forget about it each year. Every year though I'm reminded about my birthday and I spiral into a deeper depression.

 

[possessed]

I feel the same way—each birthday seems to get worse.

 

[Iris Blue]

I'm sorry, I can totally relate and understand what you're going through, my birthday passed a few months ago and I just felt and still feel awful about it, I literally told everyone I don't want to celebrate or get any happy bdays and even went out of state to be away from everyone. For a long time I would always say I would be dead before I passed the age I just turned and now I just feel like I failed at that in a way. I still plan to CTB by this year but I guess I had an idea of a date in mind and now that it has passed I just feel so ugh.

 

[Gstreater]

I'm sorry, I can totally relate and understand what you're going through, my birthday passed a few months ago and I just felt and still feel awful about it, I literally told everyone I don't want to celebrate or get any happy bdays and even went out of state to be away from everyone. For a long time I would always say I would be dead before I passed the age I just turned and now I just feel like I failed at that in a way. I still plan to CTB by this year but I guess I had an idea of a date in mind and now that it has passed I just feel so ugh.

I understand how you feel, it's harder to CTB than I thought until I tried my first time so I've learned to just bide my time to make sure I don't survive my next attempt.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable, mine just reminds me of how I've sadly suffered for yet another year in this existence I never would have chose. But anyway best wishes.

 

[William01]

I know how you feel. My birthday was yesterday, I'm still stuck in that deeper depressive episode. Only my sister minded my birthday and sent me a message. The family I live with didn't remember and I took the notification off my social media years ago because I hated being constantly reminded of it. 38 years of failure. I've always thought I would have ctb before each birthday including this one. I thought about doing an impulsive ctb using my SN on Saturday, without my earthly affairs being sorted out. But like a coward I chickened out.

I really hate this

 

[wontachievehappines]

I know how you feel. My birthday was yesterday, I'm still stuck in that deeper depressive episode. Only my sister minded my birthday and sent me a message. The family I live with didn't remember and I took the notification off my social media years ago because I hated being constantly reminded of it. 38 years of failure. I've always thought I would have ctb before each birthday including this one. I thought about doing an impulsive ctb using my SN on Saturday, without my earthly affairs being sorted out. But like a coward I chickened out.

I really hate this

I think we have the same birthday, and I completely relate to you. I'm someone who enjoys birthdays but each year and each birthday becomes more miserable. I was supposed to be dead 8 years ago. But my family intervened what could have been a successful attempt. I'm 22 and feel like such a loser among my classmates and people my age

 

[William01]

I think we have the same birthday, and I completely relate to you. I'm someone who enjoys birthdays but each year and each birthday becomes more miserable. I was supposed to be dead 8 years ago. But my family intervened what could have been a successful attempt. I'm 22 and feel like such a loser among my classmates and people my age

Sorry to be reading this... 8 years ago, would have made you 14.

I wish I could say I didn't feel suicidal when I was that age and younger. But i cant

 

[wontachievehappines]

Sorry to be reading this... 8 years ago, would have made you 14.

I wish I could say I didn't feel suicidal when I was that age and younger. But i cant

It's okay, no need to apologize at all. And yes I tried killing myself on my 14th birthday how old are you if you dont mind me asking