I'm going to put it back under my mattress and then I'll buy a chair and hide it in my trunk. Then sometime when they're gone, I'll do the deed. It will be over soon and I'm glad. I have a plan B and plan C. My plan B is to ctb with someone I met on this site awhile back. We could both drink nyan cocktails. My plan C is to od on something, and then cut my wrists so my blood toxicity levels are so high that doctors can't do anything about it. Or another thing I thought of was just having my bulimia kill me. Over work myself at tumbling and the gym and then make myself throw up everything I eat. No water or anything else that gives electrolytes or potassium back. I could just continue that until cardiac arrest occurs.
What's everyone's vote? I personally think the bulimia thing is most painless, but hanging is quick too.
Experimentation with haphazardly mixing substances together to ctb is a bad idea. You're likely to just harm yourself. Where would things be for you if that happened? Most likely worse off than you are now. You're better off sticking with methods that have had, at least to some degree, verified success.
Yeah, idk. I'm desperate to ctb, but want something that I can depend on. I need a surefire plan. Ik bulimia can lead to low electrolights, and potassium which can lead to cardiac arrest. I guess I could make myself throw up, not drink water and over work myself. Terri Shivo died that way.
