Venting my bf gets me high

[girlwitharose]

heyyy!!!! so I dont remember what i posted last. but, i broke up with my bf!!!1 do i miss him? YES!!!! do i love him??? IDK!!! . i feel so weird lately lol like im constantly in a sugar rush but its also draining me but honestly it feels amazing>!! SO pretty much, i just cant get enough of him. Hes cheated on me 2, 3 times? I dont know! I get soooo sad and have a few mental breakdowns, maybe cut myself, but after a while i get so carefree and i dont care what he does except say he loves me and i love his touch. i cant get enough of him really. I just love him to be with me. I know i like other people and dont really care about the relationship anymore, but i love him so much at the same time. Its so weird. He cheats, i get sad, i get obsessed. i love how unpredictable he is. I hate him so much with everything for not being loyal and fucking with me like this but yk what? i love the way i feel after. i think about sleeping with him then killing myself, but that seems fucked lol. Anyways,, ill ttyl!!! <3

 

[Ashu]

heyyy!!!! so I dont remember what i posted last. but, i broke up with my bf!!!1 do i miss him? YES!!!! do i love him??? IDK!!! . i feel so weird lately lol like im constantly in a sugar rush but its also draining me but honestly it feels amazing>!! SO pretty much, i just cant get enough of him. Hes cheated on me 2, 3 times? I dont know! I get soooo sad and have a few mental breakdowns, maybe cut myself, but after a while i get so carefree and i dont care what he does except say he loves me and i love his touch. i cant get enough of him really. I just love him to be with me. I know i like other people and dont really care about the relationship anymore, but i love him so much at the same time. Its so weird. He cheats, i get sad, i get obsessed. i love how unpredictable he is. I hate him so much with everything for not being loyal and fucking with me like this but yk what? i love the way i feel after. i think about sleeping with him then killing myself, but that seems fucked lol. Anyways,, ill ttyl!!! <3

It sounds like a largely positive situation. Enjoy it while it lasts.

 

[littletoomuch]

I get you. My bf of 4 years cheated on me constantly, we argued, he apologized and we reconciled every time. I want to be free from him, but I just couldn't, maybe I just don't wanna be alone.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

That's not a healthy relationship.

He knows exactly what he's doing to you as well. Hence repeating it and not changing. He doesn't give a shit, people like that don't

Sorry to be blunt, but I've been in toxic relationships and I can recognise one when I see it.

Obsession is not normal. That usually starts because they have groomed you into believing you can't live without them, and that's exactly what this sounds like

Cutting all ties would be your only way out. Trust me, I've been there and eventually, you get over them and realise how they treated you.