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ctbcat

ctbcat

Yes, the everlasting contrast.
Jul 14, 2023
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ironically i only know this song because i used to be really autistic about dan & phil, hahahaha....

it plays in my mind a lot though, without me even realising it.

maybe this is akin to the peace of eternal sleep. maybe death is not a terrible, freezing, biting cold, but simply a blank cold - light breeze on the shoulders. maybe it's warm. i think the only comfort i ever get these days is under a fluffy blanket. i hope death, the afterlife, whatever, feels that way.
 
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Mar 23, 2018
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Linkin Park-Friendly Fire :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:







Tell me the words I've forgotten
What we were fighting for
Staring right into the darkness
Through an empty open door

Can't put back what's been broken
Can't change the moment
We went too far

We're pulling apart for no reason
We're pulling a trigger in the useless war
And if we come back and go into the black (black)
What are we fighting for?
What are we fighting for?

I was supposed to protect you
No matter what's to come
But somehow forgot when they told me
"We hurt the ones we love"

Can't put back what's been broken
Can't change the moment
We went too far

We're pulling apart for no reason
We're pulling a trigger in the useless war
And if we come back and go into the black
What are we fighting for?
What are we fighting -?

It's just friendly fire, fire
Fire, fire

We're strangers in between the darkness
Diving underneath
I'll find you out on the horizon
We'll never be enemies

Can't put back what's been broken
Can't change the moment
We went too far

Pulling part for no reason
We're pulling a trigger in the useless war
And if we come back and go into the black
What are we fighting for?
What are we fighting -?

It's just friendly fire, fire
Fire, fire

Fire, fire
Fire, fire
 
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you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
187
Linkin Park-Friendly Fire :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:







Tell me the words I've forgotten
What we were fighting for
Staring right into the darkness
Through an empty open door

Can't put back what's been broken
Can't change the moment
We went too far

We're pulling apart for no reason
We're pulling a trigger in the useless war
And if we come back and go into the black (black)
What are we fighting for?
What are we fighting for?

I was supposed to protect you
No matter what's to come
But somehow forgot when they told me
"We hurt the ones we love"

Can't put back what's been broken
Can't change the moment
We went too far

We're pulling apart for no reason
We're pulling a trigger in the useless war
And if we come back and go into the black
What are we fighting for?
What are we fighting -?

It's just friendly fire, fire
Fire, fire

We're strangers in between the darkness
Diving underneath
I'll find you out on the horizon
We'll never be enemies

Can't put back what's been broken
Can't change the moment
We went too far

Pulling part for no reason
We're pulling a trigger in the useless war
And if we come back and go into the black
What are we fighting for?
What are we fighting -?

It's just friendly fire, fire
Fire, fire

Fire, fire
Fire, fire

Linkin park is 10/10, love there music 🎶
 
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Mar 23, 2018
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Darkest Hour-One With The Void :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:






Meditations at the fire line
The secret lies in the pines
I tell you all of the time
This is a sign, this is a sign
Moonlight flickers on the sea tonight
Pestilence festering, bound by the energy
The end of youth, the end of safety
I don't want to own you
I don't need you to be anyone else

So vacant, empty inside
Devoid of love of any kind
Empowered cowering king
I've seen all I need to believe
I relive every mistake I've made
Sunken hearts, flooded eyes
To give love and get nothing back
I've seen all I need to realize

I don't want to own you
I don't need you to be anyone else

I am no longer lost in fact
I'm right where I belong
Right where I need to be
Sacred geometry

Breathe with me endlessly
Sing to me in my sleep
I've already gone to the other side
Now I lay down my sword
No reason to fight anymore
I have become one with the void

Breathe with me endlessly
Sing to me in my sleep
I've already gone to the other side
Now I lay down my sword
No reason to fight anymore
I have become one with the void
And this is where I belong, yeah
This is where I belong
I am where I belong

I don't want to own you
I don't need you to be anyone else
 
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eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
174
My music taste is all over the place. As long as it feels good to me, I end up listening to it.



Forever Young: Nostalgia kicker, despite having never grown up in the era. "Let us die young or let us live forever" is a quote that echoes in my head a lot.

Fire and Ice: I love the midtone in Calliope Mori's voice, and Takanachi Kiara brings a good balance.

Little Birds: Probably the song that made me cry the most in 2023, it's about homosexuality, definitely hits hard when listening alone.

UnAlive: I'd be here forever if I linked Calliope Mori, I just love her voice. Got me into rap. It's about someone with a planned personality (being the grim reaper) fighting her intended role to being something else. The quote "I'm ignoring the lore 'cause I won't be void inside" is my personal favorite.







 
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you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
187
not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
7,975
Set It Off-Fake Ass Friends :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:









You're turnin' into who you wanna be tonight
You cherry-pick opinions you don't even like
Chameleon, you're switchin' up to save your life

I said ooo, you'd put a foot on my throat
For a foot in the door I found out
That you'd, kick me down to the rocks just to climb to the top so now

Show them what they want
Social camouflage
Mirror everyone in sight
Such a charming way to lie
Tear us all to shreds
Till there's no one left
And you're stuck with your fake ass friends

So here's a toast, to the greatest actor that I know
Put on a show and never let the curtain close
You sold your soul, to who you thought you needed most

I said ooo, you'd put a foot on my throat
For a foot in the door I found out
That you'd, kick me down to the rocks just to climb to the top so now

Show them what they want
Social camouflage
Mirror everyone in sight
Such a charming way to lie
Tear us all to shreds
Till there's no one left
And you're stuck with your fake ass friends

I said ooo, you'd put a foot on my throat
For a foot in the door I found out
That you'd, kick me down to the rocks just to climb to the top so now

Show them what they want
Social camouflage
Mirror everyone in sight
Such a charming way to lie
Tear us all to shreds
Till there's no one left
And you're stuck with your fake ass friends

So good luck with your fake ass friends
 
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Mar 23, 2018
7,975
From the unexpected... 😉😉😉😉
Heidi Klum-Sunglasses At Night :heart::love::heart::love::heart:










Okay, everyone, get your sunglasses out

I wear my sunglasses at night, so I can, so I can
Watch you weave then breathe your story lines
I wear my sunglasses at night, so I can, so I can
Keep track of the visions in my eyes
I wear my sunglasses at night, so I can, so I can
See the light that's right before my eyes

I wear my sunglasses at night
I wear my sunglasses at night
See the light that's right before my eyes

I wear my sunglasses at night, so I can, so I can
Keep track of the visions in my eyes
I wear my sunglasses at night, so I can, so I can
See the light that's right before my eyes

I wear my sunglasses at night
Night, night, night, night, night, night, night
See the light that's right before my eyes
 
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Mar 23, 2018
7,975
New Kids On The Block-Kids :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:





We been up since day one
We been chasing the sun
On the ceiling
What a feeling

When we touch we stop time
We were dancing skylines
It's amazing
What a feeling

Follow, anywhere you go I follow
Don't make me wait 'til tomorrow
Don't make me wait without you ooh

Jump in the drop-top cause we're taking it up
Got time on lock and it's all that we got
We're free, and we got nowhere to be
And we're still just kids from a nobody town
Still just kids that are messing around
Making the most of the things that we found whoa
Jump in the drop-top cause we're taking it up
Got time on lock and it's all that we got
We're free and we got nowhere to be

Every night we're spending
Like the world is ending
Cause we're dreaming
Oh what a feeling

Dancing every heartbeat
Light up every dark street
In starlight
We got all night

Follow, anywhere you go I follow
Don't make me wait 'til tomorrow
Don't make me wait without you ooh

Jump in the drop-top cause we're taking it up
Got time on lock and it's all that we got
We're free and we got nowhere to be
And we're still just kids from a nobody town
Still just kids that are messing around
Making the most out of the things that we found whoa
Jump in the drop-top cause we're taking it up
Got time on lock and it's all that we got
We're free and we got nowhere to be

Follow, anywhere you go I follow
Don't make me wait 'til tomorrow
Don't make me wait without you ooh

And we're still just kids from a nobody town
Still just kids that are messing around
Making the most out of the things that we found whoa
Jump in the drop-top cause we're taking it up
Got time on lock and it's all that we got
We're free and we got nowhere to be
 
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Mar 23, 2018
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Naughty By Nature-O.P.P. :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:










Army with harmony
Dave drop a load on 'em

OPP, how can I explain it
I'll take you frame by frame it
To have y'all jumpin' shall we singin' it
O is for Other, P is for People scratchin' temple
The last P...well...that's not that simple
It's sorta like another way to call a cat a kitten
It's five little letters that are missin' here
You get on occassion at the other party
As a game 'n it seems I gotta start to explainin'
Bust it
You ever had a girl and met her on a nice hello
You get her name and number and then you feelin' real mellow
You get home, wait a day, she's what you wanna know about
Then you call up and it's her girlfriend or her cousin's house
It's not a front, F to the R to the O to the N to the T
It's just her boyfriend's at her house (Boy, that's what is scary)
It's OPP, time other people's what you get it
There's no room for relationship there's just room to hit it
How many brothers out there know just what I'm gettin' at
Who thinks it's wrong 'cos I'm splittin' and co-hittin' at
Well if you do, that's OPP and you're not down with it
But if you don't, here's your membership

[Chorus:]
You down with OPP (Yeah you know me) [x3]
Who's down with OPP (Every last homie)
You down with OPP (Yeah you know me) [x3]
Who's down with OPP (All the homies)

As for the ladies, OPP means something gifted
The first two letters are the same but the last is something
different
It's the longest, loveliest, lean- I call it the leanest
It's another five letter word rhymin' with cleanest and meanest
I won't get into that, I'll do it...ah...sorta properly
I say the last P...hmmm...stands for property
Now lady here comes a kiss, blow a kiss back to me, now tell me
exactly
Have you ever known a brother who have another like ah girl or wife
And you just had to stop and just 'cos he look just as nice
You looked at him, he looked at you and you knew right away
That he had someone but he was gonna be yours anyway
You couldn't be seen with him and honestly you didn't care
'Cos in a room behind a door no one but y'all are there
When y'all are finish, y'all can leave and only y'all would know
And then y'all could throw the skeleton bones right in the closet do'
Now don't be shocked 'cos if you're down I want your hands up high
Say OPP (OPP) I like to say with pride
Now when you do it, do it well and make sure that it counts
You're now down with a discount

[Chorus:]
You down with OPP (Yeah you know me) [x3]
Who's down with OPP (Every last lady)
You down with OPP (Yeah you know me) [x3]
Who's down with OPP (All the ladies)

This girl ah tried to OPP me
I had a girl and she knew that matter-of-fact my girl was partner's
that
Had a fall out, disagreement, yeah an argument
She tried to do me so we did it in my apartment, bust it
That wasn't the thing it must have been the way she hit the ceiling
'Cos after that she kept on coming back and catchin' feelings
I said, "Let's go my girl is coming so you gotta leave"
She said, "Oh no, I love you Treach" I said, "Now child please"
You gots to leave, come grab your coat, right now you gotta go
I said now look you to the stairs and to the stairwindow
This was a thing, a little thing, you shouldn't have put your heart
'Cos you know I was OPP, hell from the very start
Come on, come on, now let me tell you what it's all about
When you get down, you can't go 'round runnin' off at the mouth
That's rule number one in this OPP establishment
You keep your mouth shut and it won't get back to her or him
Exciting isn't it, a special kinda business
Many of you will catch the same sorta OPP is you with
Him or her for sure is going to admit it
When OPP comes, damn-- skippy I'm with it

[Chorus:]
You down with OPP (Yeah you know me) [x3]
Who's down with OPP (This whole party)
You down with OPP (Yeah you know me) [x3]
Who's down with OPP (This whole party)

Break it down!
 
not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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Skeletal Remains-To Conquer The Devout :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:




Come forth, place before me
Sacrificial offering

Cry thy name
Shunned of light
Flesh now bled through blasphemy

Beast arise
Bring forth this day of reckoning

World demise
Seething rage so deafening

Hear our cries
Decimate all who defy

Blind our eyes
Free our mind of this ancient lie

Scorch the Earth
Bringer of archaic rebirth
Befoul its worth
Defaced divine creation, all clerics purged

Insolence
Death comes for the blessed who serve
Severance
Dismiss the holy light, your throne deserved

Beast arise
Bring forth this day of reckoning

World demise
Seething rage so deafening

Hear our cries
Decimate all who defy

Blind our eyes
Free us of this ancient lie

Suffer no more for we are reborn

No
No Gods, no masters above
All your faith in the "Creator" undone

No Gods, no masters above
Succumb to the might of the unholy one

No Gods, no masters above
Your faith now bleeds
Your pain thus feeds

At your behest O Ageless One
Command thy will through heresy
Reclaim once more
Condemn the praise of divinity
 
gluttony

gluttony

Angel my beloved
Aug 28, 2023
12

I haven't been listening to music lately but this song is weirdly calming and comforting for me
 
ctbcat

ctbcat

Yes, the everlasting contrast.
Jul 14, 2023
183
blehhh... here again :P

gosh, i love anl&lf. deathly underrated... i think a lot of their songs encapsulate how it feels to be me pretty well. this quiet yet explosive buzz of shoegaze.

good depression music.
 
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Mar 23, 2018
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Citizen Soldier-Dead End Life :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:









Killing myself for a 9 to 5
My boss gets richer while I just survive
But I don't eat without the overtime
Somebody kill me
I work so hard but it ain't enough
My car broke down then my rent went up
Guess failure's something that's just in my blood
Somebody kill me

Every day I die a little bit more
I don't know what I'm living for
Flatlined with open eyes
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life
Every day I die a little bit more
Pull the plug on my life support
'Cause nothing's going right
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life

Dead-end life

Faking a smile but my life's been hell
Been strong for everybody but myself
These past due bills ain't gonna pay themselves
Somebody kill me
Got my PhD as a pessimist
I'mma drink all night till I can't feel this
This bottle's cheaper than a therapist
Somebody kill me

Every day I die a little bit more
I don't know what I'm living for
Flatlined with open eyes
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life
Every day I die a little bit more
Pull the plug on my life support
'Cause nothing's going right
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life

All left turns, crash and burn
Stop saying it'll be alright
Out of hope, out of road
No direction that I haven't tried
Every time I see light
I'm right back at the starting line
So take your advice
Stick it where the sun don't shine

Every day I die a little bit more
Every day I die a little bit, die a little bit, die a little bit more

Every day I die a little bit more
I don't know what I'm living for
Flatlined with open eyes
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life
Every day I die a little bit more
I'm so sick of falling short
Nothing's going right
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life

Dead-end life
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life
Dead-end life
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life
 
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Mar 23, 2018
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Bring Me The Horizon-Kool-Aid :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:








We are the children of the devolution
The infamous martyrs, the scars on the sun
Asphyxiating with a smile on your face
While they pull your teeth out one by one

Is this what you wanted?
No
Do you want some more?
Yes
D-generation
Who's keeping score?

'Cause you got a taste now
Drank the Kool-Aid by the jug
So suffer your fate, ow
Come here and give me a hug
Nobody loves you like I love you
Oh, my dear
But you should've known
That this was gonna end in tears

Such a sucker for an execution
The void is a vampire
Fat on our blood
Domesticated like a cat in a cage
While they try their hand at playing god

Is this what you wanted?
No
Do you want some more?
Yes
D-generation
Afraid there's no cure

'Cause you got a taste now
Drank the Kool-Aid by the jug
So suffer your fate, ow
Come here and give me a hug
Nobody loves you like I love you
Oh, my dear
But you should've known
That this was gonna end in tears

I got my hands around your throat
I love the way you choke
'Cause I am yours and you are mine
I'll never let you go
My hands around your throat
I love the way you choke
'Cause I am yours and you are mine
I'll never let you go
(Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!)
I'll never let you go
(Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Get the fuck up
Yeah!

'Cause you got a taste now
Drank the Kool-Aid by the jug
So suffer your fate, ow
Come here and give me a hug
Nobody loves you like I love you
Oh, my dear
But you should've known
You should've known
But you should've known
That this was gonna end in tears

You should've known!

What if it's like:
"La, la-la-la, la-la-la
La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la
Oh, I forgot something
La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la, la, yeah
La-la-la, that this was gonna end in tears"
Some shit like that
 
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Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
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It doesn't matter if you're wrong or if you're right
It makes no difference if you're black or if you're white
All men are equal till the victory is one
No color or religion ever stopped a bullet from a gun
Out in the fields, the fighting has begun
Out on the streets, they're falling one by one
Out from the skies, a thousand more will die each day
Death is just a heartbeat away
It doesn't matter if you're left or to the right
Don't try to hide behind the cause for which you fight
There'll be no prisoners taken when the day is done
No flag no uniform ever stopped a bullet from a gun
Out in the fields, the fighting has begun
Out in the streets, they're falling one by one
Out from the skies, a thousand more will die each day
Death is just a heartbeat away
There's no communication
No one to take the blame
The cries of every nation
They're falling on deaf ears again
Out the fields
Out in the fields, they are falling one by one
Out in the fields, no flag has ever stopped a bullet from a gun
Death is just a heartbeat away
Out in the fields...
 

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