Venting Moving closer

[gayboy300]

I was at work today and after an hour or two, I had the feeling that maybe life isn't all that bad and perhaps I shouldn't ctb just yet. Not that I had a specific date in mind anymore, but I actually kinda enjoyed today for the most part. Regardless though, one good day doesn't really negate the looming feelings of needing to end my life on my own terms. I bought some crypto today and told myself I'll spend the next few weeks stacking enough to buy SN. I'm hoping that if this is just a depressive episode, I'll snap out of it before I have enough saved to buy the SN and have it in my possession, at which point I feel that it may be too late or that I'll be too close to the end to come back if that makes sense. I have the money to buy enough crypto for SN, but I guess I also have a glimmer of hope somewhere in my body that things will get better

 

[Crow_88]

Sounds like there may be a path back to life for you. If there is, take it!