Most absurd or embarrassing reason to kill yourself?

[Al_stargate]

I know of, well not me personally, but there was a guy in my city who killed himself because he was caught cheating with a married woman. He had a prominent position in the public sector and the word got out, and I guess he was just too embarrassed. He had a wife and kids, and when I heard I thought to myself; what a bizarre reason to wanna kill yourself, who cares, get a divorce and move on living your life. But I wasn't in his shoes. There was also a story in the news some time ago about a guy in China jumping to his death in a shopping mall because his girlfriend wanted to keep on shopping. You can find story easily on google.

I'm in no way trying to poke fun at someone or trivialize someone's pain and suffering. My reason for wanting to ctb is actually quite embarrassing. Botched surgery that was unnecessary to begin with. Wonder how I'll be remembered. Anyone else like that here, that feels like the reason for wanting to ctb is absurd, embarrassing, or odd in any. No need to share anything personal. If you know of any stories let us know but please don't share any sensitive personal information.

I wonder if there ever was a person to commit suicide because their goldfish died. That would be the most absurd reason I could think of.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that we all have the right to exit at a time of our own choosing, there is no such thing as a absurd reason reason to ctb, we have no obligations to stay alive as we did not ask to exist, suicide is a personal choice. Also we may hear things from the news but we actually do not know what people are going through in their lives, we only know what is shared in the news story.

 

[Area Man]

I wonder if there ever was a person to commit suicide because their goldfish died. That would be the most absurd reason I could think of.

Honestly that'll be another person's version of the events I think. Maybe an attention grabbing headline in a local newspaper. Not the action reason for a suicide though perhaps a trigger. A person who kills himself for a goldfish is likely dealing with far more serious underlying problems, likely stemming from very fragile mental health. I'd say any reason to kill yourself that can be described as 'absurd' like that is actually deeply sad.

In truth I bet if I off myself I'll be on the top list of embarrassing reasons to ctb because I have been publicly humiliated for staring at people inappropriately due to Tourettic OCD which when you try to describe it sounds absolutely pathetic. And then I got doxxed and stalked across the country for being a big 'pervert'.

It's not mild. It's painful. My funeral would be interesting. I don't think anyone holds out much in the way of respects for me. I might put I don't want a funeral in my will.

 

[Al_stargate]

It's not mild. It's painful. My funeral would be interesting. I don't think anyone holds out much in the way of respects for me. I might put I don't want a funeral in my will.

Sorry man, it's tough. I don't want a funeral either, it would just be another in line of humiliations for me, ironically I can't escape it even dead.

 

[Area Man]

Call it a rejection of the social conventions that were a bane of my life. I'm autistic in a family that cares little for that difference and ostracises me and most of my friends probably aren't one's for a funeral anyway so what's the point?

 

[WhiteDespair]

an end to gopher trouble

seems legit

 

[Someone123]

This is an interesting thread because this is a real way that people sometimes end up choosing to ctb. Less than three years ago a successful retired doctor, aged 70, was caught cheating in a marathon and banned from the marathon and he did ctb for this reason a few days later. He had so much to live for, why do this? He beat the second place person in his age group by well over an hour- the cheating was very obvious because he was caught on camera leaving the course. He was married and had so much to live for. very sad.

 

[Symbiote]

Seen some crazed sports fans kill themselves because their favorite team lost.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I do not want to reach the age of 30. I already promised myself that I would commit suicide before 25, because I did not want to live past my mid-twenties, but I broke that promise. This time I really want to go through with it.

 

[Dr.Precocious]

I read a wile back, before the movie The Happening, that the man that lays in the grass to be run over by his large lawnmower is a real donated capture of a suicide that the family wanted "immortalized".

 

[Circles]

For me personally here's some of mine:

-Tired of my existence basically being about looking at a screen or phone and sleeping every day in a constant loop. And sitting inside the house feeling trapped with nothing to do. Like what's the fucking point of such a pathetic existence?

-Hate how there's not enough nature or wilderness anymore in this world. Hate that there isn't enough land to simply escape to and live freely. Hate the thought of being part of a system that's poisoning nature and us humans along with it. Hate the thought of being trapped in man made ugly, grey, and lifeless concrete jungles all my life paying for a shitty existence I didn't ask for.

-Tired of constantly thinking about suicide and death, the thoughts just never leaves me even when I accept it. I'm tired of thinking, seeing,, hearing or anything reminding me about death all the damn time. Here's a thought experiment: try to go 1 day without seeing something that reminds you of death. I know I can't.

I have a lot more so yeah I'm a mess. :/

 

[Nolan96]

I remember years ago there was a big headline about an Everquest addict who killed himself. I always wondered if the final trigger was his character getting killed by a wood-giant or something and feeling like he can't even excel in the one pathetic little thing he had going in his entire life. His mother devoted the rest of her life to a campaign against Everquest and other addicting videogames and blamed her son's suicide on that. I imagine he'd probably say there was more to it and feel embarrassed that the suicide was boiled down to just that. Still, I can't help but feel a bit of sympathy for the mother who clearly had so little to live for herself, as I do for at least some of the grieving mothers who get upset with SS.

Edit: I just found a segment from a very old article about the suicide:

Last Thanksgiving, Shawn, 21, committed suicide. His mother found him at his apartment. He had shot himself at his computer. On the screen was the online computer game, Everquest.
"That damn game. He shot himself because of the game," says his mother. She says he was completely addicted to it. He may have had other problems, but she thinks Everquest pushed him over the edge.
"He couldn't stay off it. That's how strong that game is. You can't just get up and walk away," she says. In the end, she says, the game became his life.
She guesses that something terrible happened in the game, to a character he called "iluvyou" - a rejection or betrayal, something that crushed him.
"He was so upset. And then I was trying to talk to him about it, and I said, 'Well, Shawn, you know, those aren't people- they're not real people.' He was so upset. I mean, he wasn't angry, he was hurt."

 

[Area Man]

Last Thanksgiving, Shawn, 21, committed suicide. His mother found him at his apartment. He had shot himself at his computer. On the screen was the online computer game, Everquest.
"That damn game. He shot himself because of the game," says his mother. She says he was completely addicted to it. He may have had other problems, but she thinks Everquest pushed him over the edge.

And what would make a game like Everquest so addictive to him? Maybe he was autistic or had ADHD? Maybe he wasn't diagnosed so they obviously didn't know about how these conditions work. I was addicted to Crusader Kings 2 for months on end around the age of 22/23 and couldn't pull myself away even though really I wanted to. I had to ware myself out of the game completely for me to finally move on. I eventually eschewed those Grand Strategy games in favour of more episodic level based games because they were less addictive and a healthier experience where you had a baring on the story and knew it had an end.

Problem for me now is that forums have taken over where games were before! I large part because I want to communicate with the world but cannot do that outside because I'm an outcast. An addiction compounded by exclusion.

 

[Forever Dead]

I know of, well not me personally, but there was a guy in my city who killed himself because he was caught cheating with a married woman. He had a prominent position in the public sector and the word got out, and I guess he was just too embarrassed. He had a wife and kids, and when I heard I thought to myself; what a bizarre reason to wanna kill yourself, who cares, get a divorce and move on living your life. But I wasn't in his shoes. There was also a story in the news some time ago about a guy in China jumping to his death in a shopping mall because his girlfriend wanted to keep on shopping. You can find story easily on google.

I'm in no way trying to poke fun at someone or trivialize someone's pain and suffering. My reason for wanting to ctb is actually quite embarrassing. Botched surgery that was unnecessary to begin with. Wonder how I'll be remembered. Anyone else like that here, that feels like the reason for wanting to ctb is absurd, embarrassing, or odd in any. No need to share anything personal. If you know of any stories let us know but please don't share any sensitive personal information.

I wonder if there ever was a person to commit suicide because their goldfish died. That would be the most absurd reason I could think of.

One of the reasons for my wanting to ctb is because my penis wont work. I can urinate but thats about it. Not had a boner for many moons now. Is that embarrassing enough ?