More likely to CTB or less after being on SaSu?

[hmnow]

I am not more or less suicidal but I do now know where I am heading

 

[Greasyhair]

The same, but I "feel" better knowing as corny this will sound, that I found place where I can talk, and vent with people who understand me.

I tried many places, but they were either places were "normal" people came to shit down on you, or channeled the misery and turned it to hate.

 

[whybother2002]

The same, but more informed. Before I was lost, I didn't know how I could ever end my life without a gun. I was going to slice my wrists in the shower (a method I since learned it's not recommended AT ALL).

 

[Exhausted-and-Alone]

I would be lying if I said this place hadn't provided me with better knowledge on how to end my life. I'm certainly much better informed with various methods and techniques so that when I go I am more likely to actually make it happen. This is a good thing as well though, because it means I'm being much less impulsive with my attempts, causing me to avoid certain methods that another suicidal person may be attracted to simply because I know that the likelihood of me actually expiring from that is low to begin with.

So I'm still suicidal. I'm still at the same threat level for suicidality, likewise for every other measure of my mental health, I'm just more informed about what to do about it.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I learned some methods from the old SS when it was still on Reddit. I think SS here has helped me.
I don't rant like I used to. Not saying it couldn't happen again. Depends on what is going on in my life.
I still want to die as much as before I found this site. Sometimes even more but it has nothing to do with SS .... Just the shittyness of life.

 

[At The Bus Stop]

I think the biggest thing SaSu provides, is information.

If you research here enough, you can make a justified decision and do it correctly - whilst I'm not suggesting that's always the answer, I'm merely implying that it's better than ending up in a vegetive state and/or having permanent irreversible life long damage. A choice to be made is a decision only you can make.

Seconded by a space to talk amongst people who are also going through struggles, and allowing a plethora of experiences put things into perspective. (This isn't to discredit ones struggles vs another, but more to magnify that thought of "oh shit, you're going through that?")

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Hasn't affected me one way or another.

 

[Wishingforadream]

The same, only with more information.

I can't say I feel any less suicidal. Only just more aware of different methods.

Without SaSu I'd have been much more likely to attempt with an unreliable/painful method. I don't believe coming across SaSu or other similar places increases the chances of committing suicide. Only more likely to avoid irreversible damage. Only you can decide if this is what you want.

A space you can talk to people who are going through the same struggles is nice, I could never truly integrate into any other space filled with "normal" people, we just can't understand each other.

 

[claracatchingthebus]

I put the same, but it could be slightly less actually. Having a non-judgmental place is nice and I never would have gone to any mental heslh people after how theyve treated me, so perhaps this place has calmed me slightly.

 

[attheend13]

Honestly hearing the details of plans makes me less likely to act because it's so hard to actually be successful. My greatest fear is surviving it. When I consider things that are nearly foolproof I get anxiety. So it helps mostly and it's nice to hear I'm not alone when I'm fighting my way through a night

 

[Dukey]

More i guess?

I came here because i was suicidal doing alot of research on different methods.

Gave me alot of confidence to actually succeed since i feel so well informed now.

 

[Forever Sleep]

In terms of my conviction to suicide but to wait until my Dad goes first- it hasn't changed anything. If anything, it has helped me to keep holding off doing it because it gives me social interaction, a sense of community and support. A place to be honest and vent freely.

On the other hand, I've learnt about a method I feel at least half way comfortable/ confident to try. So, on that score, it's made it (hopefully) more likely I will attempt and (hopefully) succeed one day.

I could and would have found that information elsewhere though- if not here. I was extremely determined. So- I don't really see the site as contributing to either my conviction to suicide or really, the probability that I will. That was pretty much decided decades ago.

 

[PI3.14]

I don't think SaSu played any role in me wanting to CTB.

I joined this forum last year, I was already suicidal for 5 years back then, and severely depressed for 7 years.

 

[Macedonian1987]

This forum hasn't affected my urges to leave this world, but it changed my mind about the method. I was about to use a method of taking meto and then after 1 hour take an overdose of crushed xanax and pregabalin and then when I felt that I was drifting away I planned to put a plastic bag over my head. Now my method of choice is SN. Luckily if you live in an extremely corrupt and lawless country like mine, obtaining SN is almost as easy as buying an ibuprofen.

 

[braintorture]

Wanting to stop pain isn't influenced by this website. This website is actually positive for most people because it allows you to respectfully and safely make peace (and potentially recover) with yourself.

 

[closetoyou]

It has absolutely made me aware of things that I was not before - SN, being the biggest one.

However, hanging has always be an option for me regardless. And I think knowing more about stuff like FSH and PH is good in the sense that it prevents me from fucking up and ending up in a worse state than I was before if anything goes wrong.

IDK if I would say it made me 'less likely', but I don't consider this place to be something that accelerates my suicide. Sure, it can help me source SN, but I love using the chats and talking there - and a lot of the ppl there are pretty supportive, understanding of SI and aren't necessarily encouraging anybody to commit suicide.

It's complicated, for sure. But I'm kind of glad I have this site rn, otherwise I would be pretty alone. Just talking with people very casually and loosely who are all on the same ship, so to speak, provides some comfort that helps a lot right now