Money a key reason for ctb for anyone else?

[ssspadbye]

Is money a key reason for CTB for anyone else?

I feel like all the factors linked to my life that is making me CTB soon related to money. Related to my living and work conditions, physical, major problems for my family.

Like if I literally had say/someone randomly gave me say 5 million USD/EUR or so tomorrow, literally 99% of my problems would be resolved shortly, and I'd actually be able to lead a very happy life and do a world of good for others less privileged as well.

At this stage I'm planning to likely CTB tomorrow, and I was wondering - anyone else on the same boat?

 

[Alo97]

Actually I don't. I have money and that's not the problem. it's more like something that sits inside of us. I chased money and once I got it nothing changed, but I didn't count on it to improve my situation from the beginning. Maybe it will be different in yours, I know it is not easy and it would cost you a lot of energy, but out of two ways, contradictory people always choose the harder one, which is to see what will happen once you have the money. try and see

edit: i know you trying

 

[waterrrrrrrrrbottel]

This kills many. I'm sorry my friend. Money is partially the reason for me, too.

 

[We Are Angels]

I hate wage slavery. I struggle at finding and keeping employment too. So yeah, money would easily fix that. I would still CTB but not as soon.

 

[ssspadbye]

Actually I don't. I have money and that's not the problem. it's more like something that sits inside of us. I chased money and once I got it nothing changed, but I didn't count on it to improve my situation from the beginning. Maybe it will be different in yours, I know it is not easy and it would cost you a lot of energy, but out of two ways, contradictory people always choose the harder one, which is to see what will happen once you have the money. try and see

edit: i know you trying

Yeah, I guess in my circumstances, I've had a lot of time to digest, and I know the exact reasons why I'm choosing to CTB, and each of these reasons can be resolved with enough money. I'm not someone that needs to be filthy rich to be happy, and I was happy before. But while I do work, I don't have nearly enough to fix things, and my work itself is an immense source of added psychological stress for me that I can't seem to be able to escape either. I've tried very hard multiple times in other ways to make much money, honestly of course, but nothing's ever worked out yet. Maybe if something did, life would have been different. But I guess everyone has their limit, and I've just about reached mine, as things only seem to be getting worse around me. In the past, I've been someone with incredible amounts of motivation for the right causes, and have achieved some incredible things/surmounted some huge mountains. But, after all that I've lived and am living through, my candle's just about burnt out now. And it feels like time to put it out. Sure, that might change if I win the lottery tomorrow, but I'm rational enough to know that's not going to happen.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

But, after all that I've lived and am living through, my candle's just about burnt out now. And it feels like time to put it out. Sure, that might change if I win the lottery tomorrow, but I'm rational enough to know that's not going to happen.

I love the way you worded this -- "my candle's just about burnt out now." I feel the same.

For me, all money would do is (maybe) change the timeline of my CTB. It would happen sooner or later, though.

 

[ssspadbye]

I love the way you worded this -- "my candle's just about burnt out now." I feel the same.

For me, all money would do is (maybe) change the timeline of my CTB. It would happen sooner or later, though.

I guess I feel like humans we'll all ctb sooner or later in one way or another. If the "party is good," I may stay till the end. If it's not, might catch the next bus "home"...and right now, it's pretty terrible.

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

While I do think that a lot of my issues are due to financial stress, I don't think I've been a happy person for such a long time that I wouldn't even know what to do at that point. I fear my mental health is too far gone at this point. The only thing coming into a lot of money would do for me is probably provide a more peaceful method for me to ctb.

 

[ssspadbye]

While I do think that a lot of my issues are due to financial stress, I don't think I've been a happy person for such a long time that I wouldn't even know what to do at that point. I fear my mental health is too far gone at this point. The only thing coming into a lot of money would do for me is probably provide a more peaceful method for me to ctb.

Aw, hope you find your peace.

What is a bit sad is I can actually clearly visualize (and even feel) the "happiness" I'd feel if money wasn't an issue. But I think I'll ctb before I'd have the opportunity to live that life, because I don't see that reality coming true.

 

[Tuonetar_]

I'm not in a terrible financial situation right now, because I at least make enough money to get by. My main problem is that I am so tired of "getting by." The thought of dedicating 40+ hours a week, 5 days every week, for the remainder of my adulthood to a job--any job--legitimately brings me despair. Every job I've ever worked at has burned me out so badly that I can't even find the energy or inspiration to commit to any hobbies, so I feel like I'm stuck in a cycle of of working--sleeping to recover from work--working again. I could probably handle part-time a lot better, but a full-time job is the only way I can pay the bills and make ends meet every month.

So I guess my answer is yes, because I simply cannot handle working my entire life away.

 

[ConstantPain]

Money would definitely make a difference. I'm not saying it would make me happy but life would be far more tolerable. If I could leave my alcoholic, emotionally abusive husband, and afford to live in my own little home with my cats, I think I could at least find some peace. I can't imagine being excited for life or not wanting to die, but I think I could be more comfortable and tolerate my existence much better.

 

[AuroraB]

whichever comes 1st, running out of $ and/or food (climate change, food system collapse) will be the #1 reasons i CTB.

 

[h78272]

if i had money i could move out and disappear from my family, then i think i'd feel alot better. My will to make an effort and work has gone down and i cant find work anyways

 

[nattys5thtoenail]

If you are poor and disabled in this world you're cooked. Social class literally determines almost everything about the life that you live, how well you do in school, how you look, how people treat you, your health, etc.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

It is one of the reasons for me, yes. On top of many, many others.

 

[CogitoMori]

The lack of money and the fact that I have to contribute to slavery and pollution to make any at all

 

[DanielDanDean]

Obviously there is a big part of my reasons to CTB being about money.
Even if my life wouldn't be "happy" just with money I'd be able to escape from this shitty society and these shitty people.