Monday is the day

[kindofexhausted]

I ordered my Sodium Nitrate and I am going to take it as soon as it arrives (otherwise I'll chicken out). Monday is the day. I wrote the message I'm going to send to my family so they can at least hear from me and have a bit of closure. I kind of don't want to take my life really.... but if America had a caste system, I'd be at the very bottom. It's so hard. And I've been fighting so hard to rise above it. I went to college and got a job and worked really hard. But I still failed. So I'm just exhausted now. I'm mentally ill and it makes leading a normal life difficult. I'm not strong enough for this. I wish I was. But I'm not. So, Monday will be the day. Thanks for hearing me out.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

You need to be using sodium nitr I te, sodium nitr A te will not work.

 

[kindofexhausted]

You need to be using sodium nitr I te, sodium nitr A te will not work.

thanks for letting me know!!!!

 

[Sprite_Geist]

It is awful what you have experienced especially given that you wanted to give life a chance. You have a strong work ethic, and yet circumstances still slapped you in the face; it is totally understandable why you feel the way you do.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find peace.

 

[eupdplishlp]

You need to be using sodium nitr I te, sodium nitr A te will not work.

is nitrate harmless then?

 

[DeadSouls]

If you use sodium nitrate,you will still be here on Monday.