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Anarchy
Invisible anarchist
- Jul 9, 2018
- 383
I haven't set a specific date for a long while, because I was scared of backing out. Ideally, I would like to attempt before Monday, but I need everyone else to be out of the house. My dad works on weekdays, so it's more likely that I'd be left home alone then.
I'd have to rely on my sister and mother going out, though.
At the moment, I'm not scared about the possibility of being maimed.
The thing that is making me most nervous, is that I can't pick a specific time and it's hard to mentally prepare, because I don't known when I will be left alone.
I'm going to bring my tablet with me and listen to music, and hopefully that will make it more bearable.
I'm looking forward to being home alone.
I feel calm in a way that I don't think I have before. I'm a bit worried that I'll be scared when I attempt, and that consequently, I will be unsure about it.
But I feel very certain about it right now.
It should all end in a few days, max.
I haven't written a note, but I might do.
Now to enjoy what should be my last moments. I want to be able to feel like I'm ready to go at any time.
I'd have to rely on my sister and mother going out, though.
At the moment, I'm not scared about the possibility of being maimed.
The thing that is making me most nervous, is that I can't pick a specific time and it's hard to mentally prepare, because I don't known when I will be left alone.
I'm going to bring my tablet with me and listen to music, and hopefully that will make it more bearable.
I'm looking forward to being home alone.
I feel calm in a way that I don't think I have before. I'm a bit worried that I'll be scared when I attempt, and that consequently, I will be unsure about it.
But I feel very certain about it right now.
It should all end in a few days, max.
I haven't written a note, but I might do.
Now to enjoy what should be my last moments. I want to be able to feel like I'm ready to go at any time.