mom finally coming to terms with me ending my life

[nkdvvv]

After years of being depressed and not seeing the point of living, my mom finally said she is ready to let me go. I'm so happy that she is accepting it. I love her very much, but growing up i would never want to live like her. She worked her life away after she had me. She only worked and did nothing else because she needed to survive and take care of me. Her life is horrible, and since i was young she had trouble with me because of my mental health. Most people in my life work their whole life away and are miserable/living just because they were born and i don't see the point in living for me as i have no motivation or drive to live like that. That would be the only option for me as i do not want to get married/work all day just to survive, and am not well educated. In about a months time i will be leaving my house where my mother has taken care of me all my life, and will finally get to leave this world on my own terms! I can't wait to end my life. The only thing i feel guilty about is leaving my cat behind. I love him more than anything in this world. He didn't ask to be born, so i tried to give him the best life possible with lots of love and treats

 

[アホペンギン]

You have no idea how extremely lucky you are to have a parent like this. I would be very grateful to have a parent who agrees with me that maybe my life is worthless and shouldn't be lived. Let alone people's parents thinking like this the society doesn't even think this way. Good for you. I'm glad for you and i hope you find your peace soon

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be a relief having someone else who is so accepting of your decision, I believe it's rare for people to have that kind of compassionate attitude towards the right to die. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[CW36]

After years of being depressed and not seeing the point of living, my mom finally said she is ready to let me go. I'm so happy that she is accepting it. I love her very much, but growing up i would never want to live like her. She worked her life away after she had me. She only worked and did nothing else because she needed to survive and take care of me. Her life is horrible, and since i was young she had trouble with me because of my mental health. Most people in my life work their whole life away and are miserable/living just because they were born and i don't see the point in living for me as i have no motivation or drive to live like that. That would be the only option for me as i do not want to get married/work all day just to survive, and am not well educated. In about a months time i will be leaving my house where my mother has taken care of me all my life, and will finally get to leave this world on my own terms! I can't wait to end my life. The only thing i feel guilty about is leaving my cat behind. I love him more than anything in this world. He didn't ask to be born, so i tried to give him the best life possible with lots of love and treats

This is a beautiful thing and I can totally relate. A mother's blessing to depart is better than any other. A selfless love indeed.

 

[Obliviate]

It must be so nice to have a parent that suppports and understands the harsh atrocities of the world, your feelings and doesn't try to get you locked away in the psych ward for her selfish reasons. This should be normalized of wanting to choose when to end one's life and people supporting and letting go instead of trying to emotionally manipulate/force them to stay and live a miserable life. I'm happy for you.

 

[Jolene79]

Do you live with your mum or are you independent? Your mum probably has the insight to knock that after trying all options to help - eventually you realise some people's situation won't improve and nothing she says or does will make it better for you. I imagine it is incredibly painful for her. But you yourself are clearly in severe pain or you wouldn't be here and saying what you've said about all of it

 

[Professor K]

Wow.
I swear this sounds so much like my dream scenarios this is so awesome !
This is exactly how I wish society should react: try their best to help them adapt but when they see that it doesn't work, finally help them go in a peaceful way.
I'm so happy for you!

 

[nkdvvv]

Do you live with your mum or are you independent? Your mum probably has the insight to knock that after trying all options to help - eventually you realise some people's situation won't improve and nothing she says or does will make it better for you. I imagine it is incredibly painful for her. But you yourself are clearly in severe pain or you wouldn't be here and saying what you've said about all of it

I am under 30 years old and i still live with my mother due to rent prices being too high for me to move out in my area. I also don't drive, and i don't live in a city with the subway or buses unfortunately. I would've loved to live in a city but it's too expensive. She's done everything possible for me and she is a wonderful person. But after years of suffering, failed suicide attempts, and hopelessness, she finally told me that as long as i promise that she gets to bury my body and have a funeral for me, she will let me go. I truly never felt more at peace than at that moment she asked me that. It's the release i've been waiting for.

 

[Raven2]

Your mum sounds like she is full of empathy for your situation, you are lucky to have someone so understanding. Living with her I guess shes seen first hand how you are suffering.
Do you feel like because you have her blessing it will give you more time until you CTB? What is your method?

 

[blue_muse]

Your mother is a gem to understand your pain, to the extent she loves you that much to let you go .

 

[lachrymost]

How wonderful! I'm so pleased for you. My mother has reached a similar point, although it's clear she still has hope I will change my mind.