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won’t see what might’ve been…
- Jul 4, 2025
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SI really is a bitch. As much as I want to extend my stay here, I know in my heart that I cannot change how Im wired.
There's so much potential in my world. I could've been one of those rich fucks. People are naturally drawn to me.. That's how my business quickly became successful. But even with success, I still felt the same dreaded pull.
Kind of like Markus Persson.. creator of Minecraft. After his success , he felt even lonelier.
Mentally, I can't handle working anymore. Physically, my back and my knees are in bad shape.
I can't even mentally handle *not* working anymore. I just sit around all day, drinking bourbon and smoking cigarettes. Sitting and waiting for the moment I decide to CTB.
What sucks the most is I legitimately cannot connect with anyone anymore.. it's depressing.
it's planned, but the day isn't. I really don't care how much I have to fight SI when it comes time. I've fought through life so far, so, what's another challenge?
There's so much potential in my world. I could've been one of those rich fucks. People are naturally drawn to me.. That's how my business quickly became successful. But even with success, I still felt the same dreaded pull.
Kind of like Markus Persson.. creator of Minecraft. After his success , he felt even lonelier.
Mentally, I can't handle working anymore. Physically, my back and my knees are in bad shape.
I can't even mentally handle *not* working anymore. I just sit around all day, drinking bourbon and smoking cigarettes. Sitting and waiting for the moment I decide to CTB.
What sucks the most is I legitimately cannot connect with anyone anymore.. it's depressing.
it's planned, but the day isn't. I really don't care how much I have to fight SI when it comes time. I've fought through life so far, so, what's another challenge?
