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ava_sparkle

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Jul 17, 2025
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I have a mouth infection again. My tongue is numb and my jaw feels locked up. My left arm/hand has been in so much pain for weeks I wish I could cut it off. It doesn't even feel like a hand anymore. I'm typing with my right hand only but that's starting to lock up too. I can't take it. The last time I had a mouth infection doctors gave me the run around for months until I got fed up and ordered a bottle for animals. How can I be drug seeking when they have literally never gave me pills for anything in my whole life lmao. I've had pneumonia three separate times in my life, which they just told me to get Tylenol for. I know seeing my PCP is pointless. I know going to the ER is pointless. I know asking for a specialist that I might get to see after an eight month waiting period is pointless. Fuck this life, fuck my body, and fuck doctors, they're probably glad to see a complex case like mine conveniently disappear anyway.
 
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dreamsofhome

Blessed are the Peacemakers
Nov 11, 2024
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I have a mouth infection again. My tongue is numb and my jaw feels locked up. My left arm/hand has been in so much pain for weeks I wish I could cut it off. It doesn't even feel like a hand anymore. I'm typing with my right hand only but that's starting to lock up too. I can't take it. The last time I had a mouth infection doctors gave me the run around for months until I got fed up and ordered a bottle for animals. How can I be drug seeking when they have literally never gave me pills for anything in my whole life lmao. I've had pneumonia three separate times in my life, which they just told me to get Tylenol for. I know seeing my PCP is pointless. I know going to the ER is pointless. I know asking for a specialist that I might get to see after an eight month waiting period is pointless. Fuck this life, fuck my body, and fuck doctors, they're probably glad to see a complex case like mine conveniently disappear anyway.
This hit me like a train. Unfortunately, I relate all too well to your situation and "sorry" isn't even a good enough word to say for what you're going through. You don't deserve to be in pain and suffering. You deserve to be taken seriously and be treated like a fucking human! This makes me so mad. It's medical neglect. They went from prescribing people pain medication on a whim, to the far opposite end of not prescribing it at all.

The whole "take Tylenol" thing? I could scream. How about actually helping people when they're in pain? I despise the whole medical system. It's broken and leaves people even more broken. I sincerely hope that you can find some sort of relief, even if it's temporary. I wish I had a way to actually help, but if you ever need someone to vent to? I gotchu. I get it. No toxic positivity, we can scream into the void together. 🫶
 
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May 21, 2025
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How can I be drug seeking when they have literally never gave me pills for anything in my whole life lmao. I've had pneumonia three separate times in my life, which they just told me to get Tylenol for. I know seeing my PCP is pointless. I know going to the ER is pointless. I know asking for a specialist that I might get to see after an eight month waiting period is pointless. Fuck this life, fuck my body, and fuck doctors, they're probably glad to see a complex case like mine conveniently disappear anyway.
I feel yah on this. People with complex conditions that are difficult to diagnose will basically spend years of effort being gaslit and treated like drug-seekers (despite never asking for drugs) until they finally luck out with a good doctor who listens and has the skills to diagnose. I'm on year 3 and my 5th doctor and am still being treated like a hypochondriac.

Then everyone will wonder why we CTB'd...
 
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Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
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Yeah sometimes medical professionals don't always have the patient's best interests in mind or at heart and I'm sorry to hear about your experiences with them. I'm in the US and they charge exorbitant amounts just for a visit for anything. But yeah healthcare is fucked all around.
 

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