Venting might cbt this friday.

[notevenhere]

june 6, 2025. it's kinda poetic. i made it half into this year. i should have died last year and the year before that. the biggest tragedies haven't in 2023 and 2024. there's nothing for me to do in 2025. it's the same abuse. over and over again — I'll never be able to escape this.

i have so much sn. SO SO MUCH. but none of the benzos or meto. i hope it'll be successful. I can't fail, or I'll meet a faith worse than death.

I don't even want to get into details or the reasons. Just know I'm miserable and if you knew my life, suicide is the only answer.

There's nothing left for me here

 

[Alexandra_]

I understand your pain. After all, I too am only suffering in this unfortunate world. I should not have been born at all, my birth is a sore subject for me. That day was a terrible mistake. I wish you luck, you will need it

 

[FakeProdigy]

I don't think you should do it without all the required equipment, you're more likely to fail. Please be careful, no matter how hard it's been.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[darksouls]

hope everything goes well for you

send you love and peace

 

[PrismHon]

Eerily similar scenario to myself! I got the hotel booked and everything and was quite committed to it happening more or less on this day (hotel is booked for four). (Un)fortunately my conviction has wavered ever so slightly as the date approaches.

Spoiler: What caused that?

I have a 10 year old nephew, he really likes Fortnite and he is also an Eminem fan (some Eminem skins were in item shop). Last week, I was watching him play and he talked about how Eminem's uncle killed himself because he was sad, and that influenced Eminem's music. I thought "Shit, I'm that uncle..."

But I am still going to hotel and will likely bring everything with me. My desire is still very strong. But is it strong enough to go through with it? This time next week we'll find out I suppose.