i lost my baby. miscarriage but it is inside my body. dead inside me. i want to be dead to but i'm chicken so i took 2mg ativan and 6mg lunesta and some other stuff and it wont make me ctb im not lucky enough it should make me at least sleep well tonight though. saved meds cuz was pregnant so wasnt taking stuff and it accumulated so now i have lots meds for ctb. i wish husband would just say we can afford ivf and we will try again and we will find a way to pay for it.
i just want him reassure me we will have a baby. i miss my baby and they are dead inside my body and the hospital is taking forever finding way for d&c have decent anesthesia. they normally do it wide awake.